03-31-2013, 12:38 PM
And so the ups and downs continue.
I've noticed some subtle but none the less vital changes with Ultra success. Euphoria and heightened senses of optimism are temporary but what remains is a sense that success is inevitable with the right action, if i take responsibility and keep pushing towards it despite the short-term wins and losses.
I've also noticed that drinking alot whilst doing these subs seems to set be back quite abit, I drink occasionally, and when I do it tends to be abit too much so I've cut this out now completely, and I feel a hell of alot better for it.
I've been thinking alot about how I want to develop and progress with these subs. I'm an ENFP personality type but success for me somehow has always meant doing work more suited to an INTJ/ENTJ and this is the work I've always ended up doing.
I would love to become more thoughtful, reasoned and focussed in order to use my creative abilities, which I know are there somewhere, to be successful and of real benefit to my work and wider society, but this is difficult for me. Menial tasks sap my energy, doing things like data gathering turns me into a drooling zombie. yet when it comes to generating new ideas, coming up with an innovative solution, once i've comprehended the issue at large (which takes me more time than most) I tento produce really cool solutions, if I do say so myself.
I don't know whether I can over come these with programmes of successive subs, but i'm going to damn well try because more than anything, i've realise that on those occasion my mind does click into gear, I'm really good at helping people with though my work.
I've also thought about laziness alot, this is another problem, I'm always avoiding discomfort and have to be incredibly hard on myself in order to get myself moving, this, however, is also very draining - how does one overcome such aversion and resistance. I mean its ridiculous, to the point where rationality is completely disobeyed. I have a deadline in three days, and about 4 days of work to do in order to meet it. I will still leave it to the last day, perhaps to the night before!
Success will be great when it comes, but if I've learnt anything so far, its that it will take work regardless, and doing the work, is going to take alot more work on myself.
I wonder if anyone else here looks at personality types and would like to change.
I've noticed some subtle but none the less vital changes with Ultra success. Euphoria and heightened senses of optimism are temporary but what remains is a sense that success is inevitable with the right action, if i take responsibility and keep pushing towards it despite the short-term wins and losses.
I've also noticed that drinking alot whilst doing these subs seems to set be back quite abit, I drink occasionally, and when I do it tends to be abit too much so I've cut this out now completely, and I feel a hell of alot better for it.
I've been thinking alot about how I want to develop and progress with these subs. I'm an ENFP personality type but success for me somehow has always meant doing work more suited to an INTJ/ENTJ and this is the work I've always ended up doing.
I would love to become more thoughtful, reasoned and focussed in order to use my creative abilities, which I know are there somewhere, to be successful and of real benefit to my work and wider society, but this is difficult for me. Menial tasks sap my energy, doing things like data gathering turns me into a drooling zombie. yet when it comes to generating new ideas, coming up with an innovative solution, once i've comprehended the issue at large (which takes me more time than most) I tento produce really cool solutions, if I do say so myself.
I don't know whether I can over come these with programmes of successive subs, but i'm going to damn well try because more than anything, i've realise that on those occasion my mind does click into gear, I'm really good at helping people with though my work.
I've also thought about laziness alot, this is another problem, I'm always avoiding discomfort and have to be incredibly hard on myself in order to get myself moving, this, however, is also very draining - how does one overcome such aversion and resistance. I mean its ridiculous, to the point where rationality is completely disobeyed. I have a deadline in three days, and about 4 days of work to do in order to meet it. I will still leave it to the last day, perhaps to the night before!
Success will be great when it comes, but if I've learnt anything so far, its that it will take work regardless, and doing the work, is going to take alot more work on myself.
I wonder if anyone else here looks at personality types and would like to change.
