My fear of the unknown is rising to the top at the moment however I feel more social than I did last week. There was another one of those singles dances on Friday but I didn't know about it until today. I would have been more likely to go then than last friday when my thoughts were just all over the place. I was feeling confident and sociable but then at the same time not confident and sociable. and That's what it was. I can't explain it better than that. Now and in the most recent months my confidence has become almost subconcious at least with my tone, my walk, and my look but I havn't been able to believe in myself fully the last several weeks.
Today, I was out running errands and stopped by target to pick up some of those comfortable sony ear buds Ryan had suggested to me. While I was there I was looking for a head band to ensure that the ear buds would be secure during a nights rest. So I ended up in the mens section and there was a sexy girl that was working in that section. Or at least looking like she was working. In fact I think she is what you would have called a floor manager and she looked my age too. As I walked up to her I noticed she was talking to another salesman and this guy looked my age too, maybe a little older. And there was something about him I sensed that he seemed like a cool alpha dude. Either way I walk up and I'm looking at this guy in the eye and never look away once and he immediatly acknowledges me (of course it's his job) and I ask him about the head bands. The girl is to my left eyeing me and immediatly picks up the conversation and I look over into her eyes. I gaze while she talks then I said something. The guy then picks up from where I left off and I look back at him and I've never broken eye contact with either of them and it was so effortless and easy. Anyway this girl offers to show me where she thinks these headbands or sweat bands might be. We find some and she starts joking around with me and I just smirk a little then I crack a joke and she giggles. I've gazed into her eyes already before and gotten her to give me a huge smile. I then say "Well, I'm actually looking for something a little wider to cover more of my forehead." She says "I'm not sure what else we could have" Then I say that it was nice for her help and I'll just think about it. She leaves with a huge smile and goes to the other aisle. I hear her on the other side "I found something else" and I think that's cool. I start walking around but I stop myself because she's coming back to get me. She shows me what she has and hands another head band to me and moves closer to me and as she does this I look into her eyes. she meets mine but immediately looks downward and backs off about 2 feet. of course this doesn't phase me and I crack a joke "at least I have some options now" and she laughs and walks past me and I thank her for the help. I could have taken this further if I was feeling more sociable and this probably would have allowed me to decide to gaze at her one last time and let her look at me and strike up a conversation with her.
I could have had this girl in the palm of my hand but I'm not yet balanced in my center. I have been able to project my sexual aura onto others quite easily and I strongly believe that people remember me and how I make them feel. It also seems like I have trouble going out of my comfort zone but I know it will all be good as soon as I complete Women Magnet. and honestly I felt very good after I had that interaction with that girl. And I was in a very Zen like state when I was talking to her. There fore I was not able to think too much but what I was thinking about was "Is she interested in me, would she want to kiss me, does she want my number." It was all of these old beliefs that faintly came up which is mainly why I couldn't socialize with her on a more focused level. Either way I feel good about it and I know better things are yet to come! And most of all I must continue to know that the women come to me. The right women that I know I want will come to me. I don't chase them. They chase me.
EDIT: My voice is becoming deeper as well.. I'm sure it's because I'm getting older but it's all good.
Today, I was out running errands and stopped by target to pick up some of those comfortable sony ear buds Ryan had suggested to me. While I was there I was looking for a head band to ensure that the ear buds would be secure during a nights rest. So I ended up in the mens section and there was a sexy girl that was working in that section. Or at least looking like she was working. In fact I think she is what you would have called a floor manager and she looked my age too. As I walked up to her I noticed she was talking to another salesman and this guy looked my age too, maybe a little older. And there was something about him I sensed that he seemed like a cool alpha dude. Either way I walk up and I'm looking at this guy in the eye and never look away once and he immediatly acknowledges me (of course it's his job) and I ask him about the head bands. The girl is to my left eyeing me and immediatly picks up the conversation and I look over into her eyes. I gaze while she talks then I said something. The guy then picks up from where I left off and I look back at him and I've never broken eye contact with either of them and it was so effortless and easy. Anyway this girl offers to show me where she thinks these headbands or sweat bands might be. We find some and she starts joking around with me and I just smirk a little then I crack a joke and she giggles. I've gazed into her eyes already before and gotten her to give me a huge smile. I then say "Well, I'm actually looking for something a little wider to cover more of my forehead." She says "I'm not sure what else we could have" Then I say that it was nice for her help and I'll just think about it. She leaves with a huge smile and goes to the other aisle. I hear her on the other side "I found something else" and I think that's cool. I start walking around but I stop myself because she's coming back to get me. She shows me what she has and hands another head band to me and moves closer to me and as she does this I look into her eyes. she meets mine but immediately looks downward and backs off about 2 feet. of course this doesn't phase me and I crack a joke "at least I have some options now" and she laughs and walks past me and I thank her for the help. I could have taken this further if I was feeling more sociable and this probably would have allowed me to decide to gaze at her one last time and let her look at me and strike up a conversation with her.
I could have had this girl in the palm of my hand but I'm not yet balanced in my center. I have been able to project my sexual aura onto others quite easily and I strongly believe that people remember me and how I make them feel. It also seems like I have trouble going out of my comfort zone but I know it will all be good as soon as I complete Women Magnet. and honestly I felt very good after I had that interaction with that girl. And I was in a very Zen like state when I was talking to her. There fore I was not able to think too much but what I was thinking about was "Is she interested in me, would she want to kiss me, does she want my number." It was all of these old beliefs that faintly came up which is mainly why I couldn't socialize with her on a more focused level. Either way I feel good about it and I know better things are yet to come! And most of all I must continue to know that the women come to me. The right women that I know I want will come to me. I don't chase them. They chase me.
EDIT: My voice is becoming deeper as well.. I'm sure it's because I'm getting older but it's all good.
