Well... Sorry for not updating this for so long. It was difficult really to figure what was from the programs and what was from the flu, which I even later realized I REALLY had. Well.. Hopefully it was the nasty one and I'm safe now 
Additionally, I'm just so darned busy! Between school and all the other demands on my time I'm just not sure even where I'd left my head at half the time!
And Shannon, I appreciate the consideration in offering that program... BUT... I chose to just push through and take the time off school to recover my usual way. I'm generally a pretty fast recover-er anyways, and this was no exception. I took till Thursday the 17th off, but by a week after I'd posted that I thought I'd caught something, I was back and attum.
So, here's my observations so far:
On the Voice, I seem to be making slow but definite progress. I find myself tending to randomly rise in octaves more often, almost like my voice is cracking, but backwards. It's definitely interesting.
On OGSF, again slow but definite progress. It seems that somehow my fears are being made more tangible, more recognizable, at this point. I still HAVE them. But I recognize them. And other people are also recognizing them and telling me about them. I don't know if that's an intended part of the sub or not, but it's certainly helping.
Guilt and Shame have seen the most remarkable change. I really don't feel any shame at all anymore, I can TELL that I'm putting myself out there a bit more, which is probably part of why people are noticing my fear more. Guilt is still there in large part, but I'm finding myself wondering why the heck did I just apologize for that, it wasn't anything at all to apologize for! About various things where feelings of guilt drove me to apologize for things I really didn't need to apologize for.
So. Progress is certainly being made. It's going slow. But I was figuring on that.
BTW: The Voice sub is STILL having an effect on my general inflections and such, not just physical. The effects are beginning to turn permanent, while others are being introduced or lengthened more and more towards permanence. Or at least "permanent" for now - but I'm still presently using the program! We'll see how permanent it is after I start the next leg of this journey!
Since I am already seeing decent progress and I'm not even halfway through the 3 months I'd originally slated for these programs I am thinking that at that 3 month mark I will quite probably be going to LTU + Depilatory, not holding either back for a previous program.
While I was expecting a lot out of OGSF, I wasn't sure how FAST to expect it, and it's actually coming a little faster that I'd expected!
Voice I wasn't sure what to expect at all. Shannon's not had a whole lot of input on that program before now to begin with, and we've got my own background to consider which might have made things more difficult, or had no effect at all.
I don't know if this is what would fall under my background having no effect on the outcome at all or my background simply slowing it slightly, but I am definitely taking to the Voice sub as well.
Anyhooo...
I'll try to be better about this in the future. It's tough though with school and everything else that demands my time.
PS: ANNNNND just who voted against my program you big meany?! But no, seriously. Who voted against it? I'd like to know why you don't think this will be a good plan of attack for me?
Additionally, I'm just so darned busy! Between school and all the other demands on my time I'm just not sure even where I'd left my head at half the time!
And Shannon, I appreciate the consideration in offering that program... BUT... I chose to just push through and take the time off school to recover my usual way. I'm generally a pretty fast recover-er anyways, and this was no exception. I took till Thursday the 17th off, but by a week after I'd posted that I thought I'd caught something, I was back and attum.
So, here's my observations so far:
On the Voice, I seem to be making slow but definite progress. I find myself tending to randomly rise in octaves more often, almost like my voice is cracking, but backwards. It's definitely interesting.
On OGSF, again slow but definite progress. It seems that somehow my fears are being made more tangible, more recognizable, at this point. I still HAVE them. But I recognize them. And other people are also recognizing them and telling me about them. I don't know if that's an intended part of the sub or not, but it's certainly helping.
Guilt and Shame have seen the most remarkable change. I really don't feel any shame at all anymore, I can TELL that I'm putting myself out there a bit more, which is probably part of why people are noticing my fear more. Guilt is still there in large part, but I'm finding myself wondering why the heck did I just apologize for that, it wasn't anything at all to apologize for! About various things where feelings of guilt drove me to apologize for things I really didn't need to apologize for.
So. Progress is certainly being made. It's going slow. But I was figuring on that.
BTW: The Voice sub is STILL having an effect on my general inflections and such, not just physical. The effects are beginning to turn permanent, while others are being introduced or lengthened more and more towards permanence. Or at least "permanent" for now - but I'm still presently using the program! We'll see how permanent it is after I start the next leg of this journey!
Since I am already seeing decent progress and I'm not even halfway through the 3 months I'd originally slated for these programs I am thinking that at that 3 month mark I will quite probably be going to LTU + Depilatory, not holding either back for a previous program.
While I was expecting a lot out of OGSF, I wasn't sure how FAST to expect it, and it's actually coming a little faster that I'd expected!
Voice I wasn't sure what to expect at all. Shannon's not had a whole lot of input on that program before now to begin with, and we've got my own background to consider which might have made things more difficult, or had no effect at all.
I don't know if this is what would fall under my background having no effect on the outcome at all or my background simply slowing it slightly, but I am definitely taking to the Voice sub as well.
Anyhooo...
I'll try to be better about this in the future. It's tough though with school and everything else that demands my time.
PS: ANNNNND just who voted against my program you big meany?! But no, seriously. Who voted against it? I'd like to know why you don't think this will be a good plan of attack for me?
