Day 58->No pain today.
Day 59->No pain today. I've dreamed intense this night couldn't remember all parts.
I've dreamed that my hubby was for fun/for a joke driving (or something like that near a cliff)
me to the side of a cliff, in my dream I remembered the place where we where from dreams before (btw a beautiful beach area) and I was freaking and he was laughed about my "his joke" and scaring me. I also dreamed about my grandfather. My grandfather died last year 3 weeks after my pet died. This is the second time, since I use this sub, that I dream about my grandfather. This time I dreamed about the last days he was in hospital before he died.
I've done 2/3 of the sub. and I'll have to listen at least 31 days to the CUPR sub. Although I have a huge urge to the next sub I still have to be patient! I feels like I am ready to the next step (sub :-)) I think and feel that I have reached my goal around the CUPR and I have to work further on the stability of my emotions because when I read my journal I see that a few days before my monthly period I am vulnerable for toxic energies. Also I would create more success in my business with work that is more in sync and balance with me and my physicality. The work I do know in our business is mentally to heavy for me. That is nothing to be ashamed for, it is reality.
I tried before to change the work that I do into something else but I have never succeeded with it. More and more I get the feeling that I deserve also a successful and happy live.
I have had too much pain for too long. More and more I experience what I want in life. More and more I am aware that I deserve living my own choices instead of having the feeling of living the live or dream of someone else or carry the worries of someone else.
I have 3 subs on my list and 1 or 2 are following when the CUPR is done.
On my fav. list for now is;
*Overcome Guilt, Shame and Fear
*Ultra Success
*Attract Positive Energy
Day 60->Last night I dreamed about my the pet that I lost in June 2012. It was a weird dream. In my dream my hubby, I and our other pets where on a holiday and there was also my dear pet that died last year. In this dream it felt so natural that he was there and then I realized that he was there only because we where on holiday and that he only would be there when we where on a holiday because I know that he was actually "dead". This morning I also went to the dentist. I have had a huge fear for the dentist but I was calm and when I was there and it was
my time I felt a slight fear. The weird thing was that there was playing a song on the radio that has a special meaning for me related to my lost pet. The last time I was at the dentist the song was also playing so it was a very nice coincidence that the same song was playing again. It gave me a nice feeling that I was not alone in a situation where I was a bit fearful.
No pain today.
Day 59->No pain today. I've dreamed intense this night couldn't remember all parts.
I've dreamed that my hubby was for fun/for a joke driving (or something like that near a cliff)
me to the side of a cliff, in my dream I remembered the place where we where from dreams before (btw a beautiful beach area) and I was freaking and he was laughed about my "his joke" and scaring me. I also dreamed about my grandfather. My grandfather died last year 3 weeks after my pet died. This is the second time, since I use this sub, that I dream about my grandfather. This time I dreamed about the last days he was in hospital before he died.
I've done 2/3 of the sub. and I'll have to listen at least 31 days to the CUPR sub. Although I have a huge urge to the next sub I still have to be patient! I feels like I am ready to the next step (sub :-)) I think and feel that I have reached my goal around the CUPR and I have to work further on the stability of my emotions because when I read my journal I see that a few days before my monthly period I am vulnerable for toxic energies. Also I would create more success in my business with work that is more in sync and balance with me and my physicality. The work I do know in our business is mentally to heavy for me. That is nothing to be ashamed for, it is reality.
I tried before to change the work that I do into something else but I have never succeeded with it. More and more I get the feeling that I deserve also a successful and happy live.
I have had too much pain for too long. More and more I experience what I want in life. More and more I am aware that I deserve living my own choices instead of having the feeling of living the live or dream of someone else or carry the worries of someone else.
I have 3 subs on my list and 1 or 2 are following when the CUPR is done.
On my fav. list for now is;
*Overcome Guilt, Shame and Fear
*Ultra Success
*Attract Positive Energy
Day 60->Last night I dreamed about my the pet that I lost in June 2012. It was a weird dream. In my dream my hubby, I and our other pets where on a holiday and there was also my dear pet that died last year. In this dream it felt so natural that he was there and then I realized that he was there only because we where on holiday and that he only would be there when we where on a holiday because I know that he was actually "dead". This morning I also went to the dentist. I have had a huge fear for the dentist but I was calm and when I was there and it was
my time I felt a slight fear. The weird thing was that there was playing a song on the radio that has a special meaning for me related to my lost pet. The last time I was at the dentist the song was also playing so it was a very nice coincidence that the same song was playing again. It gave me a nice feeling that I was not alone in a situation where I was a bit fearful.
No pain today.
