Day 23 ->Good day today. No pain.
Some anger in the end of the day. As I received some mail from the hospital. They sent me some information about
medication and it triggered my anger. Follow and trust your instincts!
Day 24 ->I've been sleeping well and woke up refreshed. Again intense real dreams can't remind them. It seems
that I solve a lot of unprocessed issues issues in my dreams last nights. No pain. Some tingle near my left eye.
Day 25->Very tired today and I feel down, my body is a bit stiff. The weather is cold, grey and rainy. Not the best weather for my mood :-) So during the end of the day something there was a big shifting in me and a big awareness. I am reading several books about controlling behaviour and verbal abuse. I am attracted to these books because of my experiences with some people in my life. I was reading in one of these books. In these books they are writting about the difference between Power Over and Personal Power. I realized that I am raised in a Power Over environment and that I am still confronted with Power Over environment.
In other words I recognized the Power Over pattern connected with me.
A Power Over environment (or pattern) for me gives me feelings of confusion, sadness, frustration, shame, fear, guilt, hopelessness and depression. So I consciously choosed for Personal Power and decided that no one else then me can define my reality. I am the owner of my own energy field. I visualised my energy field and added the Personal Power pattern. It was like a golden light that slowly but very powerfull filled my energy field. For me this is a great step forward.
Some anger in the end of the day. As I received some mail from the hospital. They sent me some information about
medication and it triggered my anger. Follow and trust your instincts!
Day 24 ->I've been sleeping well and woke up refreshed. Again intense real dreams can't remind them. It seems
that I solve a lot of unprocessed issues issues in my dreams last nights. No pain. Some tingle near my left eye.
Day 25->Very tired today and I feel down, my body is a bit stiff. The weather is cold, grey and rainy. Not the best weather for my mood :-) So during the end of the day something there was a big shifting in me and a big awareness. I am reading several books about controlling behaviour and verbal abuse. I am attracted to these books because of my experiences with some people in my life. I was reading in one of these books. In these books they are writting about the difference between Power Over and Personal Power. I realized that I am raised in a Power Over environment and that I am still confronted with Power Over environment.
In other words I recognized the Power Over pattern connected with me.
A Power Over environment (or pattern) for me gives me feelings of confusion, sadness, frustration, shame, fear, guilt, hopelessness and depression. So I consciously choosed for Personal Power and decided that no one else then me can define my reality. I am the owner of my own energy field. I visualised my energy field and added the Personal Power pattern. It was like a golden light that slowly but very powerfull filled my energy field. For me this is a great step forward.
