12-02-2012, 08:09 AM
Sean, I do know that but it’s just that I was really hoping that it wouldn’t feel like an everyday choice I’d have to make. I'm afraid that if that feeling doesn't go away, I'll start smoking again. What I'm trying to do is keep focusing on is what Shannon says about being fine by the end of the program. I’m only in the middle now, so there’s a ways to go and much time to hope.
Elusive, I actually heard that as you meant it, and thanks. I’m guessing people read my thread but don’t feel the need to comment, or possibly (if not a smoker) don’t understand what I’m going through. All is fine with me. There’s many times that I read the guys threads and am either strongly in agreement or sometimes strongly in disagreement but don’t really feel it’s appropriate to comment as I’m not a guy in their situation lol.
Shannon, you know I’m hanging on your every word! Lol My problem has always been the psychological aspect of smoking, as opposed to the nicotine addiction part. Hopefully by the end of the program, I won’t have to make the day to day choice to not smoke. But for now, as long as I’m choosing not to smoke, it’s working.
I don’t know if I agree about the commercials, because they sure did seem scary to me! I was thinking maybe they effected me that way because I’m listening to this program. Maybe looking at visuals would help the program to work even better.
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Today, I’m posting with a very heavy heart. We’ve had an issue with our youngest daughter for a long while now. Before we left for Florida, there was a plan in place for her to go to a day to day place to get some extensive help that she needs. She’s wasn’t working and unemployment extended her claim, and the insurance company would pay for the therapy. It was a plan and good one. But when we got back, she said she had gotten a job and was not going to get help. Said she was fine and could handle it herself. She actually has multiple issue, one causing the rest so to speak. We’ve coddled her and gotten 2 therapist to help in the past, nothing that ever helped and she’s not even close to being strong enough to handle this. So this time we opted for tough love. I told that since she opted to not go through with getting help, then after the holidays she needed to find another place to live, as we couldn’t watch her kill herself anymore. Being impulsive and immature she left yesterday, and is living with her boyfriend and his family. This is killing me, because they are not equipped to deal with her issues and I’m not even sure they know she has any. She’s very convincing about being fine or actually anything else she wants someone to believe. I had even started her listening to the overcome guilt, fear and shame sub, but she didn’t have enough listening time to make any positive difference.
The only reason I’m posting this, other than maybe the therapeutic effects of getting it out (I haven’t talked to anyone other than my immediate family, as to not embarrass her, although with it being the holiday season with family functions, it’s gonna be hard to be hard to be silent) is because even going through this horrible time, I haven’t smoked and I thought that was worthy to post. Believe me, I have wanted to but choose not to.
Elusive, I actually heard that as you meant it, and thanks. I’m guessing people read my thread but don’t feel the need to comment, or possibly (if not a smoker) don’t understand what I’m going through. All is fine with me. There’s many times that I read the guys threads and am either strongly in agreement or sometimes strongly in disagreement but don’t really feel it’s appropriate to comment as I’m not a guy in their situation lol.
Shannon, you know I’m hanging on your every word! Lol My problem has always been the psychological aspect of smoking, as opposed to the nicotine addiction part. Hopefully by the end of the program, I won’t have to make the day to day choice to not smoke. But for now, as long as I’m choosing not to smoke, it’s working.
I don’t know if I agree about the commercials, because they sure did seem scary to me! I was thinking maybe they effected me that way because I’m listening to this program. Maybe looking at visuals would help the program to work even better.
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Today, I’m posting with a very heavy heart. We’ve had an issue with our youngest daughter for a long while now. Before we left for Florida, there was a plan in place for her to go to a day to day place to get some extensive help that she needs. She’s wasn’t working and unemployment extended her claim, and the insurance company would pay for the therapy. It was a plan and good one. But when we got back, she said she had gotten a job and was not going to get help. Said she was fine and could handle it herself. She actually has multiple issue, one causing the rest so to speak. We’ve coddled her and gotten 2 therapist to help in the past, nothing that ever helped and she’s not even close to being strong enough to handle this. So this time we opted for tough love. I told that since she opted to not go through with getting help, then after the holidays she needed to find another place to live, as we couldn’t watch her kill herself anymore. Being impulsive and immature she left yesterday, and is living with her boyfriend and his family. This is killing me, because they are not equipped to deal with her issues and I’m not even sure they know she has any. She’s very convincing about being fine or actually anything else she wants someone to believe. I had even started her listening to the overcome guilt, fear and shame sub, but she didn’t have enough listening time to make any positive difference.
The only reason I’m posting this, other than maybe the therapeutic effects of getting it out (I haven’t talked to anyone other than my immediate family, as to not embarrass her, although with it being the holiday season with family functions, it’s gonna be hard to be hard to be silent) is because even going through this horrible time, I haven’t smoked and I thought that was worthy to post. Believe me, I have wanted to but choose not to.
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