08-08-2010, 09:07 PM
The video is still making my sexuality "spiky"... meaning its nervous energy due to the fact that the new beliefs are battling the old ones. With it being a new feeling, it feels awkward at times but at the same time, I like it (since I know what's going on, lol).
So, what I'm feeling is like a car with a rough idle. It still runs and fast but it's rough. As my mind fully accepts and welcomes the new beliefs, things will smooth out... I know they will.
I bumped into a worker that works in the CCU monitor tech area... she's a light skinned black that I'm VERY attracted to. She always lights up when she's around me and yes, I do have a thing for light skinned blacks (another one works @ Hooters that also is very flirty with me... askin' me about layin' pipes and stuff! lol). But I got the monitor tech's name and friended her on Facebook (she accepted within an hour). I also hugged her and once I did, big time energy shot through me and I went tingly all over!
I was thinking to myself OMG she is so cute!
My crazy dreams continue as always. The erotic ones stopped for now but they will return when I least expect them to.
Which leads me to this question: Is there anyway possible to initiate and to control a dream so I can dream the stuff I want to or is it just automatic to a certain extent?
And I definitely get an hour each day on the Aura video (for some reason, it's like an aphrodisiac to me, lol).
So, what I'm feeling is like a car with a rough idle. It still runs and fast but it's rough. As my mind fully accepts and welcomes the new beliefs, things will smooth out... I know they will.
I bumped into a worker that works in the CCU monitor tech area... she's a light skinned black that I'm VERY attracted to. She always lights up when she's around me and yes, I do have a thing for light skinned blacks (another one works @ Hooters that also is very flirty with me... askin' me about layin' pipes and stuff! lol). But I got the monitor tech's name and friended her on Facebook (she accepted within an hour). I also hugged her and once I did, big time energy shot through me and I went tingly all over!
I was thinking to myself OMG she is so cute!
My crazy dreams continue as always. The erotic ones stopped for now but they will return when I least expect them to.
Which leads me to this question: Is there anyway possible to initiate and to control a dream so I can dream the stuff I want to or is it just automatic to a certain extent?
And I definitely get an hour each day on the Aura video (for some reason, it's like an aphrodisiac to me, lol).
