08-04-2010, 11:23 AM
I'm watching more of the aura video and I'm also noticing this: there is like a mental tug-of-war going on because I'm feeling extremely sexy but nervous at the same time because I feel sexy, if that makes any sense. So, I know it's pulling up repressed feelings, installing NEW beliefs, and also pulling up and uprooting limiting beliefs at the same time. I know what's going on so I'm trying to find out creative ways of releasing that pent-up energy.
The NEW beliefs feel rather alien right now but I know that will pass with time. I will continue on with the subs!
I'm also noticing a lot of women as of very lately (like in the past week) REALLY lighting up when I'm around them (the aura, Ronatello!! DUH! LOL). Yesterday at work, I was in the Oncology dept of the hospital and the woman that works in the pharmacy was extremely smiley around me. When women are very smiley around me, I get horny quick... I can't help it!
. She was telling me about her daughter's soccer practice and we were talking about the scorching hot weather we are having as of late. Our conversations have been short in the past until yesterday. She is a mature woman but I think she is pretty (she's also married)... I would classify her as a Cougar (mature, pretty woman).
Another thing that I'm wanting to share is my neediness is vanishing at a quick pace every day. I used to have a habit of going to Hoots every time I'm off but lately, I've been like "I don't care if I go there today or not"... which is good since my checkbook is runnin' low! Since I'm getting more and more HOT looks from women every where I go, the "want" of going to Hoots is vanishing as well.
I had a dentist appt. today and got to check out the dentist's nurse (yeah, I'm bad... DEAL WITH IT! lol). I had my necklace that my half sis made for me and the magnetic ends grabbed hold of her tools or something. She smiled and made a comment about that. I smiled a little but having a mouth full of Novocaine makes that kind of challenging.
And on the way out, I spot a cutie on the way in. We briefly lock eyes and I said "hello" as I opened the door for her. She smiled and said thank you as she walked in. The saying "hello" was completely in the moment and it just slipped out.
Last nights dream had me in my workplace... or something similar and my boss was asking me to do a lot of stuff... and I was doubting myself if I could finish it all in the alloted time. I don't remember much on that dream but I credit the dream to something that the subs are uprooting stuff deep out of my mind.
The NEW beliefs feel rather alien right now but I know that will pass with time. I will continue on with the subs!
I'm also noticing a lot of women as of very lately (like in the past week) REALLY lighting up when I'm around them (the aura, Ronatello!! DUH! LOL). Yesterday at work, I was in the Oncology dept of the hospital and the woman that works in the pharmacy was extremely smiley around me. When women are very smiley around me, I get horny quick... I can't help it!
. She was telling me about her daughter's soccer practice and we were talking about the scorching hot weather we are having as of late. Our conversations have been short in the past until yesterday. She is a mature woman but I think she is pretty (she's also married)... I would classify her as a Cougar (mature, pretty woman). Another thing that I'm wanting to share is my neediness is vanishing at a quick pace every day. I used to have a habit of going to Hoots every time I'm off but lately, I've been like "I don't care if I go there today or not"... which is good since my checkbook is runnin' low! Since I'm getting more and more HOT looks from women every where I go, the "want" of going to Hoots is vanishing as well.
I had a dentist appt. today and got to check out the dentist's nurse (yeah, I'm bad... DEAL WITH IT! lol). I had my necklace that my half sis made for me and the magnetic ends grabbed hold of her tools or something. She smiled and made a comment about that. I smiled a little but having a mouth full of Novocaine makes that kind of challenging.
And on the way out, I spot a cutie on the way in. We briefly lock eyes and I said "hello" as I opened the door for her. She smiled and said thank you as she walked in. The saying "hello" was completely in the moment and it just slipped out.
Last nights dream had me in my workplace... or something similar and my boss was asking me to do a lot of stuff... and I was doubting myself if I could finish it all in the alloted time. I don't remember much on that dream but I credit the dream to something that the subs are uprooting stuff deep out of my mind.
