09-23-2012, 01:33 PM
I will have to figure out how all that affiliate stuff works cause I don't have a clue. But one thing at a time...the program needs to work first.
Feel free to be selfish and post on my thread anytime! lol I'm not lying when I say things like I need all the help or helpful words I can get on this venture. I'm doing it but it's rough.
That last paragraph sounded like it came from the son that Shannon never had haha. I know it's all true but I feel very naked and defenseless.
I am very much struggling. It started Friday and doesn’t seem to be subsiding. At first glance, it would appear to be anxiety but I’m not so sure.
I think that nicotine is, on one level, is an amazing drug. Good, bad or indifferent, it does so many things from relaxation to stimulating and very much in-between. It’s a shame that it so addictive and can’t be used for anything beneficial, or least not that I know of.
One of things that is so noticeable to me whenever I quit and this time is no exception, is that it has the ability to numb emotions that I assume many non-smokers deal with on a day to day basis. They may not and probably doen't even realize it because it’s a natural feeling to them.
But for me, it feels like an sensory overload. Like some flood gate has been opened and I am a magnet for every emotion out there. It sucks! What it seems to equate to for me, is that it makes me feel extremely vulnerable. I think it’s this vulnerable feeling that in the past has beat me down until I relented and smoked. Hopefully, this program will take of it before it becomes more of a problem then it is right now!
Feel free to be selfish and post on my thread anytime! lol I'm not lying when I say things like I need all the help or helpful words I can get on this venture. I'm doing it but it's rough.
That last paragraph sounded like it came from the son that Shannon never had haha. I know it's all true but I feel very naked and defenseless.
I am very much struggling. It started Friday and doesn’t seem to be subsiding. At first glance, it would appear to be anxiety but I’m not so sure.
I think that nicotine is, on one level, is an amazing drug. Good, bad or indifferent, it does so many things from relaxation to stimulating and very much in-between. It’s a shame that it so addictive and can’t be used for anything beneficial, or least not that I know of.
One of things that is so noticeable to me whenever I quit and this time is no exception, is that it has the ability to numb emotions that I assume many non-smokers deal with on a day to day basis. They may not and probably doen't even realize it because it’s a natural feeling to them.
But for me, it feels like an sensory overload. Like some flood gate has been opened and I am a magnet for every emotion out there. It sucks! What it seems to equate to for me, is that it makes me feel extremely vulnerable. I think it’s this vulnerable feeling that in the past has beat me down until I relented and smoked. Hopefully, this program will take of it before it becomes more of a problem then it is right now!
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