Day 4:
I have to say this really unearths a lot of deep insecurities about unworthiness, attractiveness and beauty, got me feeling highly self conscious but at the same time making me very lucid mentally all the while also taking up quite some resources to execute.
Part of me wants to stop but i will and have a bigger want to stay on it until it works through all that unpleasantness to then unfold fully.
Today i went out with friends and actually felt less attractive than normally but still was able to dance quite a bit but had high approach anxiety and problems even fear to create and hold eye contact with women.
I contrast I don't feel bad in anyway not having had any success with women going out today just happy to be able to sleep soon lol.
Anyways looking forward to getting some info on full run through estimations for X4A-1600.
I have to say this really unearths a lot of deep insecurities about unworthiness, attractiveness and beauty, got me feeling highly self conscious but at the same time making me very lucid mentally all the while also taking up quite some resources to execute.
Part of me wants to stop but i will and have a bigger want to stay on it until it works through all that unpleasantness to then unfold fully.
Today i went out with friends and actually felt less attractive than normally but still was able to dance quite a bit but had high approach anxiety and problems even fear to create and hold eye contact with women.
I contrast I don't feel bad in anyway not having had any success with women going out today just happy to be able to sleep soon lol.
Anyways looking forward to getting some info on full run through estimations for X4A-1600.
