01-04-2025, 02:18 AM
The effects for this OF run have extended on my experience with AM6. I have stronger boundaries because I am not so afraid of consequences.
This arises in relation to work. My work environment is a place where (to not make things political here) certain very much partial or partisan attitudes are taken for granted as what everyone thinks and should think. I've become clearer in my words and in my mind what I do and do not stand for and what does and does not serve me.
On a more abstract level, it is eye-opening and even to an extent disturbing how one's attitudes can change. If I rewound my life by two years, I would never, ever have thought these issues (in this case, around fear and boundaries) were issues for me. And while it's amazing the learning and growth that is possible, it is overwhelming to confront the challenge of determining how to proceed. How can I comprehend the shortcomings of my conscious and subconscious mental landscape from within that same landscape? What is truly possible, and what is the goal toward which we should aim these capacities?
This arises in relation to work. My work environment is a place where (to not make things political here) certain very much partial or partisan attitudes are taken for granted as what everyone thinks and should think. I've become clearer in my words and in my mind what I do and do not stand for and what does and does not serve me.
On a more abstract level, it is eye-opening and even to an extent disturbing how one's attitudes can change. If I rewound my life by two years, I would never, ever have thought these issues (in this case, around fear and boundaries) were issues for me. And while it's amazing the learning and growth that is possible, it is overwhelming to confront the challenge of determining how to proceed. How can I comprehend the shortcomings of my conscious and subconscious mental landscape from within that same landscape? What is truly possible, and what is the goal toward which we should aim these capacities?
