09-18-2012, 12:57 PM
After I wrote that last post, I kept thinking to myself, why wait? So when I ran out of that last electronic I had, I didn’t buy any more. I’m struggling some but trying to take one day at a time.
I’ve been noticing my coffee doesn’t taste as good, which I’m taking as a disconnect, but I will readdress because I’m not giving that up. We tailgate for the football games and Saturday, I went to the liquor store to stock up but nothing sounding good to me. I ended up buying a variety of different choices but only drinking pretty much water the whole time. I don’t really drink all that much anymore anyway, so this is no big deal, but it is noticeable.
We have a Winnebago that we use for tailgating. After being there awhile, I looked up and over the sink was a half pack of the cigarettes I used to smoke. The ones that would make my mouth water and draw me back everytime. It was so strange to see them and not really think anything about them one way or the other. It was just simply, yeah I smoked them before and I don't now, nothing more nothing less. I know that feeling or non-feeling is from the 4g program that I used the first time. There’s only one big difference between then and now which is, then I had something to switch too(the electronic) to use instead of just quitting. And now I’m just stopping altogether with nothing to substitute. Looking back I realized that that transition was so simple, and it’s been at least 6 months since I’ve smoked a regular cigarette. Hopefully the program will kick in quickly this time cause anxiety is the worst.
If I could scale the difference between right now and other times I had stopped, I would say I am just under the threshold of losing the battle. It would be about 49 to 51%, as where the other times were more like 20 to 80%, and I would have lost. As long as the desire decreases every day I’ll be ok. Someone might say, it shouldn’t be this hard with this program, but all I know is that my desire to quit right now is stronger than my desire to smoke, so I’m gonna go with that and see what happens.
I’ve been noticing my coffee doesn’t taste as good, which I’m taking as a disconnect, but I will readdress because I’m not giving that up. We tailgate for the football games and Saturday, I went to the liquor store to stock up but nothing sounding good to me. I ended up buying a variety of different choices but only drinking pretty much water the whole time. I don’t really drink all that much anymore anyway, so this is no big deal, but it is noticeable.
We have a Winnebago that we use for tailgating. After being there awhile, I looked up and over the sink was a half pack of the cigarettes I used to smoke. The ones that would make my mouth water and draw me back everytime. It was so strange to see them and not really think anything about them one way or the other. It was just simply, yeah I smoked them before and I don't now, nothing more nothing less. I know that feeling or non-feeling is from the 4g program that I used the first time. There’s only one big difference between then and now which is, then I had something to switch too(the electronic) to use instead of just quitting. And now I’m just stopping altogether with nothing to substitute. Looking back I realized that that transition was so simple, and it’s been at least 6 months since I’ve smoked a regular cigarette. Hopefully the program will kick in quickly this time cause anxiety is the worst.
If I could scale the difference between right now and other times I had stopped, I would say I am just under the threshold of losing the battle. It would be about 49 to 51%, as where the other times were more like 20 to 80%, and I would have lost. As long as the desire decreases every day I’ll be ok. Someone might say, it shouldn’t be this hard with this program, but all I know is that my desire to quit right now is stronger than my desire to smoke, so I’m gonna go with that and see what happens.
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