09-16-2012, 04:36 PM
Well, I'm pretty sure I'd want to try the alpha female set first anyways. Or a custom build based on that, maybe. But I'm really interested in testing my, I suppose more rightly theory, though I truly do believe it, that our subconscious already thinks itself completely female. Or at least mine, anyways. I suppose I can't REALLY speak for others, but it wouldn't at all surprise me if it were a truth for any full transsexual.
Many of us literally were unable to fully function while we were trying to hide. In-betweenies are generally much more able to function in hiding. They can be HAPPIER being able to express themselves in cross-gendered ways, but they FUNCTION even without. I wasn't even functional.
I think the difference lies in how strongly our subconscious and conscious minds are at odds with each other. In my case my subconscious was completely and firmly assured of it's identity as female, while my conscious mind refused to deny the evidence so to speak. Eventually my conscious denial could no longer hold up to the barrage from my subconscious and broke. And what a glorious break that was... It still hurts to remember when that happened towards the end of my soul search last year... It was... a powerful moment...
Many of us literally were unable to fully function while we were trying to hide. In-betweenies are generally much more able to function in hiding. They can be HAPPIER being able to express themselves in cross-gendered ways, but they FUNCTION even without. I wasn't even functional.
I think the difference lies in how strongly our subconscious and conscious minds are at odds with each other. In my case my subconscious was completely and firmly assured of it's identity as female, while my conscious mind refused to deny the evidence so to speak. Eventually my conscious denial could no longer hold up to the barrage from my subconscious and broke. And what a glorious break that was... It still hurts to remember when that happened towards the end of my soul search last year... It was... a powerful moment...
