12-22-2023, 05:50 AM
Day 285
I'm in the middle of the first week of a 3-4 week break before my next 3 month listening cycle.
My career workload is increasing. In 2024, it's going to test me. Interestingly, my whole life is smoothing out to help me accommodate the onslaught that's about to ensue. I'm about to take on responsibilities that I would've never been able to handle prior to running Maverick. Instead of being completely crushed, the stress is manageable.
From the very beginning, Maverick sparked a growing level of indifference inside me. That continues. It's not an attitude of defiance. It's genuine indifference. It reminds me of something I read in the book "Reality Transurfing" about reduced importance. You can check that out on your own if you're interested.
The most notable change I've experienced in the past month or so is in my home life. I'm really enjoying the time I spend with my immediate family. In the past, I've been so focused on my career and other day to day stressors that it felt like I was being swept away in some unseen current. Looking back, I've been emotionally disconnected for years. That's mainly because I didn't have the emotional capacity to handle the overload I experienced day to day. Maverick is definitely helping with that. This is a large part of what I mean when I say that my life is smoothing out.
There are other small things that I've noticed also. For instance:
If I'm interested, conversations tend to flow. If I'm not interested, I let the conversation die. I'm not interested in filling the silence to avoid awkward moments.
I used to be uncomfortable while in close proximity to others. It doesn't bother me now. This became very clear to me yesterday as a coworker (who doesn't posses much spatial awareness) moved really close to me to show me something on a print. There was a time when instinct would've backed me away. Not yesterday. Or last week. Or last month. Looking back, this has been happening for a while. Also looking back, it's not uncommon for people to make space for me as I approach.
I find myself speaking up instinctively, even when my 'superiors' have the floor. So far, it's generally well received. It might even be appreciated.
The things I've mentioned above aren't examples of aggression. They're just natural behaviors that I often don't detect until after the fact.
I'm in the middle of the first week of a 3-4 week break before my next 3 month listening cycle.
My career workload is increasing. In 2024, it's going to test me. Interestingly, my whole life is smoothing out to help me accommodate the onslaught that's about to ensue. I'm about to take on responsibilities that I would've never been able to handle prior to running Maverick. Instead of being completely crushed, the stress is manageable.
From the very beginning, Maverick sparked a growing level of indifference inside me. That continues. It's not an attitude of defiance. It's genuine indifference. It reminds me of something I read in the book "Reality Transurfing" about reduced importance. You can check that out on your own if you're interested.
The most notable change I've experienced in the past month or so is in my home life. I'm really enjoying the time I spend with my immediate family. In the past, I've been so focused on my career and other day to day stressors that it felt like I was being swept away in some unseen current. Looking back, I've been emotionally disconnected for years. That's mainly because I didn't have the emotional capacity to handle the overload I experienced day to day. Maverick is definitely helping with that. This is a large part of what I mean when I say that my life is smoothing out.
There are other small things that I've noticed also. For instance:
If I'm interested, conversations tend to flow. If I'm not interested, I let the conversation die. I'm not interested in filling the silence to avoid awkward moments.
I used to be uncomfortable while in close proximity to others. It doesn't bother me now. This became very clear to me yesterday as a coworker (who doesn't posses much spatial awareness) moved really close to me to show me something on a print. There was a time when instinct would've backed me away. Not yesterday. Or last week. Or last month. Looking back, this has been happening for a while. Also looking back, it's not uncommon for people to make space for me as I approach.
I find myself speaking up instinctively, even when my 'superiors' have the floor. So far, it's generally well received. It might even be appreciated.
The things I've mentioned above aren't examples of aggression. They're just natural behaviors that I often don't detect until after the fact.
