12-06-2023, 06:26 AM
Day 74 (19th day away from subs),
Might resume MM in a couple of days, wrapping up the rest period for a total of 21 days.
I'm beginning to appreciate that I'm wasting a lot of time; even if I'm geared towards success in the general sense, I spend a lot of time on distractions, often to dull the emotional pain of pushing towards what I want.
The last couple of days, I felt the same dull and persistent anxiety that I felt at around age 21, which was a pivotal year surrounding money, imprinting me in a negative direction. That was also the year where I made a lot of cold calls out of desperation and got nowhere, probably creating an unconscious learned helplessness.
Might resume MM in a couple of days, wrapping up the rest period for a total of 21 days.
I'm beginning to appreciate that I'm wasting a lot of time; even if I'm geared towards success in the general sense, I spend a lot of time on distractions, often to dull the emotional pain of pushing towards what I want.
The last couple of days, I felt the same dull and persistent anxiety that I felt at around age 21, which was a pivotal year surrounding money, imprinting me in a negative direction. That was also the year where I made a lot of cold calls out of desperation and got nowhere, probably creating an unconscious learned helplessness.
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