08-16-2023, 04:54 PM
Day 170
After reading Duke's latest post, there a few places I can say that my Maverick experience aligns with his. For the rest, I really haven't gotten that far yet.
1) "rethinking what I wanted" - I'm taking this one slowly. I'm taking the baby steps of getting to know me through gaining a better understanding of my mind/emotion.
2) "deal with yourself, your body, your mortality, it tunes you so closely to yourself" - Statement #1 has recently expanded into 'understanding' my physical body through meditation and exercise.
3) "Your tolerance for bullshit becomes nil, you cut through all the fat and get straight to the heart of everything. Maverick in a way almost makes you someone that the vast majority of people end up fearing." - Over the past 2 weeks, this has become increasingly evident. There's a lot to unpack from this statement and I don't want to go into a lot of detail. But, I've witnessed this myself.
Lately, I've been really enjoying my workout routine. This is b/c I'm sleeping better, I've managed to get rid of my lower back pain, I'm doing a routine that's conducive to mobility, and I flat out love having a pump in my arm/chest/shoulders so intense that I feel like Conan (the Barbarian...not O'Brien).
I also feel like I'm expanding internally. I've mentioned dissolving cages several times. Now, it feels like I'm expanding faster than the current cage can dissolve. Imagine Bruce Banner trapped inside a cage designed for his scrawny body. Then imagine he begins a gradual growth into the Hulk. He isn't busting out of the cage. he's being mashed into the bars with increasing pressure. Eventually, he'll bust out. I mean, damn, he's becoming the Hulk. But the until those bars bend and eventually break, the growth process is uncomfortable. That's where I am now.
After reading Duke's latest post, there a few places I can say that my Maverick experience aligns with his. For the rest, I really haven't gotten that far yet.
1) "rethinking what I wanted" - I'm taking this one slowly. I'm taking the baby steps of getting to know me through gaining a better understanding of my mind/emotion.
2) "deal with yourself, your body, your mortality, it tunes you so closely to yourself" - Statement #1 has recently expanded into 'understanding' my physical body through meditation and exercise.
3) "Your tolerance for bullshit becomes nil, you cut through all the fat and get straight to the heart of everything. Maverick in a way almost makes you someone that the vast majority of people end up fearing." - Over the past 2 weeks, this has become increasingly evident. There's a lot to unpack from this statement and I don't want to go into a lot of detail. But, I've witnessed this myself.
Lately, I've been really enjoying my workout routine. This is b/c I'm sleeping better, I've managed to get rid of my lower back pain, I'm doing a routine that's conducive to mobility, and I flat out love having a pump in my arm/chest/shoulders so intense that I feel like Conan (the Barbarian...not O'Brien).
I also feel like I'm expanding internally. I've mentioned dissolving cages several times. Now, it feels like I'm expanding faster than the current cage can dissolve. Imagine Bruce Banner trapped inside a cage designed for his scrawny body. Then imagine he begins a gradual growth into the Hulk. He isn't busting out of the cage. he's being mashed into the bars with increasing pressure. Eventually, he'll bust out. I mean, damn, he's becoming the Hulk. But the until those bars bend and eventually break, the growth process is uncomfortable. That's where I am now.
