Life Tune-Up - Effects Diary

[Tigerlilly]

When last I wrote, I was going to enter day 32 listening to the subs. I keep listening at night while sleeping, but my sleep schedule got all mucked up by another all nighter of work. Sadly, not only did i not accomplish what was needed, I still haven't. The last 4 days have been very difficult! The last two days, well, they can be best described to be filled with a simmering fury. I feel like I know the source of the feelings, revolving around acknowlegement or more precisely, the lack thereof, but it doesn't make a ton of sense. Perhaps hormones are playing are bigger role right now or perhaps it has more to do with the line from the "Mourning Bride": "Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned / Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned." Either way, it's not fun and it doesn't fell like anything I'm doing is helping.

Unfortunatly, my impulsive behavior got the best of me over the last 4 days and I hit the hornets nest with a big stick. I couldn't seem to stop myself. Now it's just a matter of time before that come back to bites me. I should probably begin stocking up on band aids . . . .