04-20-2023, 06:47 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-20-2023, 09:43 AM by Chris P. Bacon.)
Had a realization about myself last night. The effects of it were immediate and still going on today. If this is something that sticks around for the rest of my Mav run and/or for the rest of my life just the resolution of this issue will have been worth the price of admission.
It's interesting how Mav is causing me to address a lot of key issues in me without addressing the fear surrounding these issues. All the while addressing fear by killing the roots? It's paradoxical how not focusing on fear resolution still addresses fear, most likely by addressing the root. I think that my OFv4 run was necessary for me to run Mav, however, I think the time I've been on Mav has been more productive as far as internal change is concerned compared to my whole OFv4 run. I was expecting a lot of change on OF and while it did resolve fears it didn't push me to change.
Not so on Maverick.
The expectation for a high degree of change on OFv4 is on me and most likely wasn't realistic.
It's interesting how Mav is causing me to address a lot of key issues in me without addressing the fear surrounding these issues. All the while addressing fear by killing the roots? It's paradoxical how not focusing on fear resolution still addresses fear, most likely by addressing the root. I think that my OFv4 run was necessary for me to run Mav, however, I think the time I've been on Mav has been more productive as far as internal change is concerned compared to my whole OFv4 run. I was expecting a lot of change on OF and while it did resolve fears it didn't push me to change.
Not so on Maverick.
The expectation for a high degree of change on OFv4 is on me and most likely wasn't realistic.
