04-07-2023, 03:22 PM
I have been journaling offline for the most part as a lot of what is coming up is very personal and private to me. It's one of the first times in my life that I have been more private about this stuff and it actually feels kind of good.
On that note, change is abundant. Not only from Maverick but it seems that change is in the air. A lot of people I know are having some major thing come up in their life right now. Maverick has been helpful in a lot of ways getting me to process through a lot of the change in a timely manner. I feel like the entire process of change; identification of the issue and acknowledging it, information acquisition, and understanding, application and experiencing the new state of being are all much more streamlined than those around me at present and more than is usual for me. I think for the first time in my adult life, I feel like deep change is a possibility and my current overarching goal is to maintain any change acquired on Maverick to remain even after I stop using Maverick itself. OPH is such a tempting sub as there are a few low-key issues I'd like to have addressed.
Maverick was and is still a little bit of a challenge for me to execute. Sometimes I slip into old habit states of being and maverick is quick to punish that. There have been days where I have felt incoherent as a person and energetically and Maverick will let you know when you are in that state. This stallion will not tolerate being half hearted about anything. While it has induced very frustrating states of being in me that are taxing and stressful, it has pushed me to be more present as a person. for the most part I'd have to call myself someone who was deeply tuned out of life on an emotional level. There is a lot more to that but part of me just didn't want to participate in life.
On maverick I am unable to maintain that part of myself. I can't keep giving energy to that habit. Not only did it make executing Mav hard, but it's not healthy or a self respecting habit to have. So I changed and am more present in life and that has relieved a lot of pressure. Not just from Mav but also from life in general. So the stress of Maverick has pushed me to be in a place where I like living a lot more.
Despite Mav making my life a little difficult, it has also assisted me in the changes required to execute it in a beneficial and smooth manner. The energy can sometimes still be a little intense but since starting it has been a lot smoother.
I did have a dream in which I was able to settle on the interpretation that for most of my life I have been passive to life choices and therefore have drifted and not lived my own life to a large degree and I'm looking to change that.
Self-care and other healthy habits are getting better. More looks from women as well.
Even with the struggle to execute Mav correctly, I do not feel like I should change subs. I thought about it but I keep getting the stay your course feeling so I keep running it.
On that note, change is abundant. Not only from Maverick but it seems that change is in the air. A lot of people I know are having some major thing come up in their life right now. Maverick has been helpful in a lot of ways getting me to process through a lot of the change in a timely manner. I feel like the entire process of change; identification of the issue and acknowledging it, information acquisition, and understanding, application and experiencing the new state of being are all much more streamlined than those around me at present and more than is usual for me. I think for the first time in my adult life, I feel like deep change is a possibility and my current overarching goal is to maintain any change acquired on Maverick to remain even after I stop using Maverick itself. OPH is such a tempting sub as there are a few low-key issues I'd like to have addressed.
Maverick was and is still a little bit of a challenge for me to execute. Sometimes I slip into old habit states of being and maverick is quick to punish that. There have been days where I have felt incoherent as a person and energetically and Maverick will let you know when you are in that state. This stallion will not tolerate being half hearted about anything. While it has induced very frustrating states of being in me that are taxing and stressful, it has pushed me to be more present as a person. for the most part I'd have to call myself someone who was deeply tuned out of life on an emotional level. There is a lot more to that but part of me just didn't want to participate in life.
On maverick I am unable to maintain that part of myself. I can't keep giving energy to that habit. Not only did it make executing Mav hard, but it's not healthy or a self respecting habit to have. So I changed and am more present in life and that has relieved a lot of pressure. Not just from Mav but also from life in general. So the stress of Maverick has pushed me to be in a place where I like living a lot more.
Despite Mav making my life a little difficult, it has also assisted me in the changes required to execute it in a beneficial and smooth manner. The energy can sometimes still be a little intense but since starting it has been a lot smoother.
I did have a dream in which I was able to settle on the interpretation that for most of my life I have been passive to life choices and therefore have drifted and not lived my own life to a large degree and I'm looking to change that.
Self-care and other healthy habits are getting better. More looks from women as well.
Even with the struggle to execute Mav correctly, I do not feel like I should change subs. I thought about it but I keep getting the stay your course feeling so I keep running it.
