04-06-2023, 12:56 AM
April 6, 2023
1st rest day
I'm writing since it forces me to own what I'm feeling, and I'm fighting some change this morning. Without using E5, I'd would be swimming in fear and dealing with it by denying it. I want to do that, but even just imagining that, I saw and felt the pain and grief inside. The grief says "nah, it never worked before either".
There's something on my mind.
I'm facing feelings of responsibility for myself. That's what's spooking me. I'll just leave that.
Fear wants me to bullshit and explain. Nope.
1st rest day
I'm writing since it forces me to own what I'm feeling, and I'm fighting some change this morning. Without using E5, I'd would be swimming in fear and dealing with it by denying it. I want to do that, but even just imagining that, I saw and felt the pain and grief inside. The grief says "nah, it never worked before either".
There's something on my mind.
I'm facing feelings of responsibility for myself. That's what's spooking me. I'll just leave that.
Fear wants me to bullshit and explain. Nope.
I want to be FREE!
