03-28-2023, 01:20 AM
March 28, 2023
1st listening day
A little growth is being seen this morning. For months now, and way before then, I'd face desires to grow and almost instantly have something battling this desire to grow. I assume it's fear battling this change, and from prior experience on Shannon's subs, I've seen the growth win eventually.
For example, I deleted my last post yesterday while at work. In the morning right before leaving for work, I typed something out quickly which was true: I'd wanted to keep writing. And then subtle oppositional thoughts rose quickly, and my message quickly got mixed up, making me sound like I was full of s***. I don't want to live in lies. I don't want to be that person anymore. But more importantly, it felt wrong. That's not who I am or wish to be.
The growth that I'm celebrating is I'm holding on to positive desires longer before fear jumps up and attempts to subvert it. I felt that this morning and wanted to share it.
Loops tonight. A lot of change came on this last rest period.
1st listening day
A little growth is being seen this morning. For months now, and way before then, I'd face desires to grow and almost instantly have something battling this desire to grow. I assume it's fear battling this change, and from prior experience on Shannon's subs, I've seen the growth win eventually.
For example, I deleted my last post yesterday while at work. In the morning right before leaving for work, I typed something out quickly which was true: I'd wanted to keep writing. And then subtle oppositional thoughts rose quickly, and my message quickly got mixed up, making me sound like I was full of s***. I don't want to live in lies. I don't want to be that person anymore. But more importantly, it felt wrong. That's not who I am or wish to be.
The growth that I'm celebrating is I'm holding on to positive desires longer before fear jumps up and attempts to subvert it. I felt that this morning and wanted to share it.
Loops tonight. A lot of change came on this last rest period.
I want to be FREE!
