03-18-2023, 09:15 AM
Day 6
I feel really good today.
One thing I'm noticing is that my interactions with people are different. It's subtle, but it's there. It could be, in part, because I'm more present in conversations. Typically, my mind is running multiple directions because I'm frequently dealing with multiple urgent matters at once in my work. But yesterday, I noticed that I was able to subdue the 'scatteredness', and be there in that moment. I know some of that probably comes across as me parroting the posts of others, but it's what is happening. I'm not saying it's some drug-like laser focus experience or anything like that. It's just that the noise is subdued enough that I can actually participate in whatever is happening in front of me. This has extended to my home life as well.
What I've written doesn't adequately capture what I sense happening. It's as if I've developed internal filters over the years that help keep me focused on overall goals/tasks. Those filters serve a purpose. They keep those little nagging things at bay...the things that don't serve the defined goal. The problem with those filters is that they create a sort of tunnel vision. And in my experience, anything that falls outside that tunnel vision essentially doesn't exist for me. In some ways, that has served me. In some ways, my life has passed me by. Maverick seems to be taking me to a place where those filters are no longer needed. Like, maybe, somehow, I can experience all the good things life has to offer.
There seems to be a staggering immensity to this sub and it's really hard to describe without experiencing it. It might take a novelist several books to adequately describe this thing. Even then, I think some would just take it at face value.
I'm only 6 days in, so we'll see how things unfold. So far, this is new ground for me.
I feel really good today.
One thing I'm noticing is that my interactions with people are different. It's subtle, but it's there. It could be, in part, because I'm more present in conversations. Typically, my mind is running multiple directions because I'm frequently dealing with multiple urgent matters at once in my work. But yesterday, I noticed that I was able to subdue the 'scatteredness', and be there in that moment. I know some of that probably comes across as me parroting the posts of others, but it's what is happening. I'm not saying it's some drug-like laser focus experience or anything like that. It's just that the noise is subdued enough that I can actually participate in whatever is happening in front of me. This has extended to my home life as well.
What I've written doesn't adequately capture what I sense happening. It's as if I've developed internal filters over the years that help keep me focused on overall goals/tasks. Those filters serve a purpose. They keep those little nagging things at bay...the things that don't serve the defined goal. The problem with those filters is that they create a sort of tunnel vision. And in my experience, anything that falls outside that tunnel vision essentially doesn't exist for me. In some ways, that has served me. In some ways, my life has passed me by. Maverick seems to be taking me to a place where those filters are no longer needed. Like, maybe, somehow, I can experience all the good things life has to offer.
There seems to be a staggering immensity to this sub and it's really hard to describe without experiencing it. It might take a novelist several books to adequately describe this thing. Even then, I think some would just take it at face value.
I'm only 6 days in, so we'll see how things unfold. So far, this is new ground for me.
