03-18-2023, 02:14 AM
March 18, 2023
3rd listening day
Considering I've been dealing with a lot of GSF lately, I spent some time in OGSF journals to see how guys were transitioning. One positive thing stuck with me, and that was seeing how some are actively freeing themselves from long-held negative patterns and associations with people who brought them down.
Also for me, the need to step out of those patterns, however uncomfortable it was.
I'm not fantasizing about jumping. I just wished to be reminded that all the struggle to move out of self-created hell isn't in vain. It helped me feel connected again.
I also had a different thinking this morning. Normally when I consider growth, I'll have this lump in my throat along with a repressed anger. I'll desire growth, but reminders of failure tag on to it, so major growth is not my aim most of the time.
But this morning that fear and pain was not so prominent. I considered who I am now and liked roaming through possibilities. I honestly felt like I was thinking like an adult rather than a scared kid.
So E5 definitely has some gold. Seems like I should be looking for more.
3rd listening day
Considering I've been dealing with a lot of GSF lately, I spent some time in OGSF journals to see how guys were transitioning. One positive thing stuck with me, and that was seeing how some are actively freeing themselves from long-held negative patterns and associations with people who brought them down.
Also for me, the need to step out of those patterns, however uncomfortable it was.
I'm not fantasizing about jumping. I just wished to be reminded that all the struggle to move out of self-created hell isn't in vain. It helped me feel connected again.
I also had a different thinking this morning. Normally when I consider growth, I'll have this lump in my throat along with a repressed anger. I'll desire growth, but reminders of failure tag on to it, so major growth is not my aim most of the time.
But this morning that fear and pain was not so prominent. I considered who I am now and liked roaming through possibilities. I honestly felt like I was thinking like an adult rather than a scared kid.
So E5 definitely has some gold. Seems like I should be looking for more.
I want to be FREE!
