03-07-2023, 11:41 AM
"That's the Tidal effect. You make progress, it scares some part of you, that part u-does some of the progress, and then relaxes. Then you make more progress when it relaxes, and it repeats, but! Since this isn't the first time it's happened, it's not as scary, and there is push back, but not enough to erase all the progress. Sort of like 2 steps forward, 1 step back. Still progress."
Awesome! : D, I thought this would be the case. (when self doubt dont come into play..) but confirmation is always nice.
(It will also help to say shut up to my self doubt).
"You can stop blaming and punishing yourself for making mistakes now. Wink Do you know and understand why your subconscious self is fighting the program?"
True, I learned from it and I make sure everything will go correctly now. Why my subconscious is fighting? because it's scared of the unknown I guess..
"Why would you fear rejection unless you were making it their responsibility for you to be worth spending time with? You need to work on internalizing your own sense of self worth in that you understand that what other people say and do and choose does not reflect on what value you hold in any way.""
"Self confidence stems from having a positive self image. You are very judgemental of and critical of yourself, and I suspect you learned that from your..."
Well My parents were raised with the idea that everyone else was better then them (especially my mother) So ofcourse I was raised with that mind set as well.
Also my Autism was found when I was 3 years old after a seizure attack and everyone always told me I was different but I never really knew how. (even though I had to learn to look people in the eye)
Luckly one of the subtle changes of the subs is that I slowly become more social, I'm not yet at the point where I start conversation with strangers but I can give better responds to what strangers are saying to me.
"As you are getting used to the change?"
I guess? the thing I noticed from when I messed up was that at the beginning there was this energy feeling lasting only for a few days but now that I'm useing it correctly I can still feel it even though it gets weaker over time.
So I guess I just treated it as a sign that I'm using the experiences correctly now.
"Does one side seem to be winning at this point?"
For now it's a tie but I do feel the part that wants the change to become stronger it's just subtle and needs some more time : )
"How are the days on vs days off?"
Hmm, pretty good I guess? I dont really noticed a difference between the two other then the fact I get very happy when I'm listening to the Experience in my sleep, The Tiredness and the mood switch seems to happen and both on and off days.
I had a few off days where I looked forward to the days on again after the second day off though but not enough to think I should reduce my off days to 2.
Also while writing this I found out how the Quote button works, so next time I will be able to make better responds posts. xD
Awesome! : D, I thought this would be the case. (when self doubt dont come into play..) but confirmation is always nice.
(It will also help to say shut up to my self doubt)."You can stop blaming and punishing yourself for making mistakes now. Wink Do you know and understand why your subconscious self is fighting the program?"
True, I learned from it and I make sure everything will go correctly now. Why my subconscious is fighting? because it's scared of the unknown I guess..
"Why would you fear rejection unless you were making it their responsibility for you to be worth spending time with? You need to work on internalizing your own sense of self worth in that you understand that what other people say and do and choose does not reflect on what value you hold in any way.""
"Self confidence stems from having a positive self image. You are very judgemental of and critical of yourself, and I suspect you learned that from your..."
Well My parents were raised with the idea that everyone else was better then them (especially my mother) So ofcourse I was raised with that mind set as well.
Also my Autism was found when I was 3 years old after a seizure attack and everyone always told me I was different but I never really knew how. (even though I had to learn to look people in the eye)
Luckly one of the subtle changes of the subs is that I slowly become more social, I'm not yet at the point where I start conversation with strangers but I can give better responds to what strangers are saying to me.
"As you are getting used to the change?"
I guess? the thing I noticed from when I messed up was that at the beginning there was this energy feeling lasting only for a few days but now that I'm useing it correctly I can still feel it even though it gets weaker over time.
So I guess I just treated it as a sign that I'm using the experiences correctly now.
"Does one side seem to be winning at this point?"
For now it's a tie but I do feel the part that wants the change to become stronger it's just subtle and needs some more time : )
"How are the days on vs days off?"
Hmm, pretty good I guess? I dont really noticed a difference between the two other then the fact I get very happy when I'm listening to the Experience in my sleep, The Tiredness and the mood switch seems to happen and both on and off days.
I had a few off days where I looked forward to the days on again after the second day off though but not enough to think I should reduce my off days to 2.
Also while writing this I found out how the Quote button works, so next time I will be able to make better responds posts. xD
