11-21-2022, 06:31 PM
Currently having an urge to switch subs to the new UMS. I won't do that right now as I want to have three full months of USLM behind me first and I want to pay for it with my own money I've earned personally - which I'm going to start receiving in December - and not with money I have been given to tide me over my psychotic episode and stint of joblessness by my family.
I've been spending a lot of time bemoaning my fate, that I'm this-and-this years old and still financially dependent on my family due to the choices I have made, especially due to focusing on my singing career which is, as of now, completely bust and was never my main source of income anyway (I also bemoan the fact I spent so much time and effort in a job that paid so little and cost me so much emotionally).
I've also been spending a lot of time considering my options for moneymaking, even thinking about getting a labor job that pays well, since times are hard - but then I'd have to sacrifice my translation income which has been unstable these past several years to say the least and has me all in panic when my psychosis acts up due to how unstable it can get. Then again, I've been putting in effort to make it more stable and get more work which has started paying off in the recent weeks. I'd love some stability financially in my life for a change, hence the drive to run UMS to help with that.
I've been spending a lot of time bemoaning my fate, that I'm this-and-this years old and still financially dependent on my family due to the choices I have made, especially due to focusing on my singing career which is, as of now, completely bust and was never my main source of income anyway (I also bemoan the fact I spent so much time and effort in a job that paid so little and cost me so much emotionally).
I've also been spending a lot of time considering my options for moneymaking, even thinking about getting a labor job that pays well, since times are hard - but then I'd have to sacrifice my translation income which has been unstable these past several years to say the least and has me all in panic when my psychosis acts up due to how unstable it can get. Then again, I've been putting in effort to make it more stable and get more work which has started paying off in the recent weeks. I'd love some stability financially in my life for a change, hence the drive to run UMS to help with that.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
