Day 51,
I realized a couple of days ago that I've been avoiding things that have real-world stakes.
Avoiding Jiu-Jitsu tournaments, even though they were available to me.
Avoiding money-making opportunities.
Dating women long-term who also have fear-based issues.
It permeated the areas of my life. I thought the latest run of OF got all of it; it helped A LOT, but didn't get all of it, and I think it's been coming back.
Noticing that I've had some feelings of panic today; my contract ends in about 7-8 weeks, and I don't have a job lined up.
I really want to resume UMS 2.0, but I think that I need to work on my inner fears.
I realized a couple of days ago that I've been avoiding things that have real-world stakes.
Avoiding Jiu-Jitsu tournaments, even though they were available to me.
Avoiding money-making opportunities.
Dating women long-term who also have fear-based issues.
It permeated the areas of my life. I thought the latest run of OF got all of it; it helped A LOT, but didn't get all of it, and I think it's been coming back.
Noticing that I've had some feelings of panic today; my contract ends in about 7-8 weeks, and I don't have a job lined up.
I really want to resume UMS 2.0, but I think that I need to work on my inner fears.
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