Day 3
I thought I could be a tough guy and run 2 loops for 2 consecutive days.
Lesson learned when I find myself drowsy at my desk at around 2 PM. Down to 1 loop it is!
My reality has shifted; if I look at a woman, she usually looks back. That's not to say that they're interested, but they look back.
Spoke to a nurse for about 30 seconds about a patient, then heard her colleagues snickering to her as I was walking off. Even if it was negative I don't give a shit.
I notice that my stuttering is largely gone; when my typical stutter arises, it's almost like I glitch my way through it, as though my body pushes me to finish the word even though it's not 100% perfect. I think that my stuttering is not so much neurological but more about deservingness; I feel more of it, so I don't struggle to speak my mind.
Spoke to someone I had never met in the officespace as though I had known her for years. Totally natural and unforced; this isn't "oh, look at this neat placebo situation that I forced to prove that this sub works!" it's something that I had the organic idea to throw out there. No awkwardness.. nothing!
I thought I could be a tough guy and run 2 loops for 2 consecutive days.
Lesson learned when I find myself drowsy at my desk at around 2 PM. Down to 1 loop it is!
My reality has shifted; if I look at a woman, she usually looks back. That's not to say that they're interested, but they look back.
Spoke to a nurse for about 30 seconds about a patient, then heard her colleagues snickering to her as I was walking off. Even if it was negative I don't give a shit.
I notice that my stuttering is largely gone; when my typical stutter arises, it's almost like I glitch my way through it, as though my body pushes me to finish the word even though it's not 100% perfect. I think that my stuttering is not so much neurological but more about deservingness; I feel more of it, so I don't struggle to speak my mind.
Spoke to someone I had never met in the officespace as though I had known her for years. Totally natural and unforced; this isn't "oh, look at this neat placebo situation that I forced to prove that this sub works!" it's something that I had the organic idea to throw out there. No awkwardness.. nothing!
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