AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS

[LionMonkey]

@LionMonkey Quick question since you did Alpha Male before. Post your first run of the AM program how many of the changes lasted when you weren't using the program? Or did they slowly fade out like with DMSI? And by changes I mean internal changes like emotional stability and external changes like meeting a girl or having an FWB

@risingwarrior although it's many questions, your comment caught me in the right time.. enjoy.


Stage 6 - day 21

It's hard to say if AM effects are lasting etc. I stopped focusing and caring about other guys reactions to me after my last relationship.

I have more emotional stability than when I was younger for sure. I think it's natural to become more emotionally stable when you age. There are also traumas and inner-game related stuff that needs to be worked on to have a more solid foundation. In general though, when you get past the 18-25, you become more emotionally stable. The trauma and inner-game stuff are hidden triggers that can release an outburst of emotions.. most common is anger.

External changes.. On my first run of this subliminal, I didn't feel emotional stable.. in fact I felt a lot of fear because I had my back against the wall. At the time I was in my early 20's. Fear is a strong motivator though and was a big reason for the results with meeting girls.

This time I have run it, I'm much more alpha in the sense that I'm more rock solid. I've noticed lots of guys showing respect, some guys trying to bully and troll me and a few guys trying to confront me.

80-90% of the time I act as the Alpha I see myself being. 20-10% of the time I don't respond or act accordingly and it gets on my nerves.

Two examples:

1) Like walking with some friends to another club late night, then a guy bumps hard into me. We both keep walking and turn our heads looking back at each other. I wanted to punch his mouth and adrenaline rushed through my arms. I make a motion with my hand in an expressive way like a bullet going through him as the natural motion I had in that moment. I turn and keep walking with my friends with the thought that I didn't come visit this city and them to get in fights but to meet girls. The guy was saying something racist after I turned my back but no idea what it was. One could argue this situation is hard to act differently in future.

2) I say hi strongly to a girl walking in the bar. She's open, smiles and says hi back and stops a bit. Then I realize she was with a group of people, right behind her and she was just at the front, leading. The guy behind her said some B.S. that they are engaged. I responded weak and then he put his hand on my neck. Only after I realized I was weak and should have done things differently. Although he's bigger than me I don't fear a confrontation at all. It was the situation that was new to me and it happened very fast, hence my lack of response.

Reminds me of.. I don't know how it got developed more solidly.. most of the time I have very low to zero fear of confronting guys bigger than me. The 7 years of martial arts training have something to do with it.. but it was not as solid as it has been since the last year.. strange.


On the girls side it's difficult to say what has changed with this run of AM.

Here are some results from the past 2 weeks:
There were girls who tried to pick me up when the club was closing. I had some kisses with a few cuties after 30-60 seconds. I had girls really liking me after opening and I might have said 2-3 sentences, complying with my physicality. Also had a girl introduce me to her mom and sister as her husband. I had girls who wanted me to pull but wasn’t my type.

The results I'm having are not what I really want.. but I'm trying to understand and learn about it every day.


When I did the first run I had fear as fuel. This time I don't have fear to motivate me.

I wonder sometimes if I've become lazy.. if I've become too comfortable.. or if I'm actually starting to really learn about myself and how I work.

Either way.. I found 50% of life is to get myself into a lifestyle and position to be able to get what I want with less effort.
and the other 50% is creatively and enjoying doing so.


- LM