Day 139 break
Yesterday went really well in terms of the sub, where I feel/sense the bloom like a fresh wave/rush. Its load > process> clear execution and knowing im on OFv3 where things surface, such as fear in the morning.
Second day now without loops and its as if nothing is going on really, like a wear off effect, which has me started loops again before. I really want to give myself processing time this round.
Im clearly having some DMSI TID going on and waves of feeling awesome. Some women seem to shutdown while others give a lovey dovy look filled with desire and bedroom eyes. Hypnosis is a thing, I find myself getting in trance when locking eyes intentionally while holding it.
Today I found myself saying out loud when talking with a friend, that my sense of time is off/not there and im feeling as if im in a vacuüm or some sorts, as if being in a void. Pretty wild. It started with him seeing me looking up some esoteric occult stuff, and so we started to share experiences, but I was paying attention to subtext. When doing this I didnt call him out and felt somewhat stuck.
Im also not impressed by the front presentation of people. Masks are a thing and im gaining deeper sight and understanding along with new creative ideas. They aint fooling me, im actually disregarding it to an extent. Same as with women, less and less impressed by looks, less and less reacting to how she looks. I aint impressed, im grounded in my masculine leadership, like a dad interacting with his daughter and doing the right thing, and by default, passing shittests. "Im not impressed by your excuses missy, you are grounded, youre on time out" kind of mindset.
Im literally at the point in writing my story. Each moment I have the choice to decide to feel good and tend to it. Which is awesome.
Yesterday went really well in terms of the sub, where I feel/sense the bloom like a fresh wave/rush. Its load > process> clear execution and knowing im on OFv3 where things surface, such as fear in the morning.
Second day now without loops and its as if nothing is going on really, like a wear off effect, which has me started loops again before. I really want to give myself processing time this round.
Im clearly having some DMSI TID going on and waves of feeling awesome. Some women seem to shutdown while others give a lovey dovy look filled with desire and bedroom eyes. Hypnosis is a thing, I find myself getting in trance when locking eyes intentionally while holding it.
Today I found myself saying out loud when talking with a friend, that my sense of time is off/not there and im feeling as if im in a vacuüm or some sorts, as if being in a void. Pretty wild. It started with him seeing me looking up some esoteric occult stuff, and so we started to share experiences, but I was paying attention to subtext. When doing this I didnt call him out and felt somewhat stuck.
Im also not impressed by the front presentation of people. Masks are a thing and im gaining deeper sight and understanding along with new creative ideas. They aint fooling me, im actually disregarding it to an extent. Same as with women, less and less impressed by looks, less and less reacting to how she looks. I aint impressed, im grounded in my masculine leadership, like a dad interacting with his daughter and doing the right thing, and by default, passing shittests. "Im not impressed by your excuses missy, you are grounded, youre on time out" kind of mindset.
Im literally at the point in writing my story. Each moment I have the choice to decide to feel good and tend to it. Which is awesome.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
