OF has me in a meditative state of complete not needing anything. Whole, fulfilled. Its showing in my interactions with people. Generally chill, tranquil.
When I was driving, I noticed a girl at the busstop. She rose her finger and locked eyes, gesturing "hi" before I even was aware of it. It simply happened. Energy introduces you, which is why in cases, women lose attraction. Idk who she was, at all. She looked kinda dreamy, fuck me eyes.
I also notice some people light up like christmas trees when I start talking with them, like they dont know how to open me. After the ice has been broken they spill so many things about themselves, its very interesting. Never knew this older guy was so vital in his life! Him telling he skates 30km and what was very cool. I realize with some people, they are being brought up when engaging with me. I have to display. I can see OF having a intimidating dominant factor. Women pay attention to this. Displaying being social is an attractive trait.
I read in RTBoss's journal ( shout out to you brother!) About empathic confusion, having the waters being muddles of which is which. This has been a long time thing for me. "Am I feeling it, or am I picking it up making it subconsciously mine?" Its been a source of loneliness, hurt and what not for me, thinking something was wrong with me, while I was doing just fine.
Underneath all the stuff im doing pretty good even. Things come up and thats it. Its like my core remains zen and intact. I still get furious about the madness in this world, but I dont have to accept it. Solution thinking instead of outrage. Still, whats going on deserves outrage but its a tricky subject.
Edit: oh yeah! My face has been really slimmed out. My jawline is pretty sharp. Very cool. Might be the low kcal of the last 2 days.
When I was driving, I noticed a girl at the busstop. She rose her finger and locked eyes, gesturing "hi" before I even was aware of it. It simply happened. Energy introduces you, which is why in cases, women lose attraction. Idk who she was, at all. She looked kinda dreamy, fuck me eyes.
I also notice some people light up like christmas trees when I start talking with them, like they dont know how to open me. After the ice has been broken they spill so many things about themselves, its very interesting. Never knew this older guy was so vital in his life! Him telling he skates 30km and what was very cool. I realize with some people, they are being brought up when engaging with me. I have to display. I can see OF having a intimidating dominant factor. Women pay attention to this. Displaying being social is an attractive trait.
I read in RTBoss's journal ( shout out to you brother!) About empathic confusion, having the waters being muddles of which is which. This has been a long time thing for me. "Am I feeling it, or am I picking it up making it subconsciously mine?" Its been a source of loneliness, hurt and what not for me, thinking something was wrong with me, while I was doing just fine.
Underneath all the stuff im doing pretty good even. Things come up and thats it. Its like my core remains zen and intact. I still get furious about the madness in this world, but I dont have to accept it. Solution thinking instead of outrage. Still, whats going on deserves outrage but its a tricky subject.
Edit: oh yeah! My face has been really slimmed out. My jawline is pretty sharp. Very cool. Might be the low kcal of the last 2 days.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
