07-24-2021, 10:43 AM
Day 23 cont.
I went for a walk and took some rest afterwards. I was hoping for a sign, something that will grab my attention and help me make sense of the situation. I found nothing. I started thinking if this entire situation is due to my ego. I mean how could she not pursue someone like ME, best and greatest, right? And maybe there is something to it, but that's a different story.
What ended up happening was as I was exercising and I was thinking about her a thought came. I don't wanna tell you what that is but it makes sense given who she is and it gives me solace. It wasn't my fault, I could have done things better but it doesn't mean I did things wrong. I think I did the best I could given circumstances. This is kind of feeling I need. Also if I'm right there is nothing I can do so no point in dwelling on the subject and if she contacts me eventually I won't have hurt feelings.
Still some anger and such remain. But now it's much more familiar feeling. I plan to use these emotions to my advantage. When life gives you lemons...
I went for a walk and took some rest afterwards. I was hoping for a sign, something that will grab my attention and help me make sense of the situation. I found nothing. I started thinking if this entire situation is due to my ego. I mean how could she not pursue someone like ME, best and greatest, right? And maybe there is something to it, but that's a different story.
What ended up happening was as I was exercising and I was thinking about her a thought came. I don't wanna tell you what that is but it makes sense given who she is and it gives me solace. It wasn't my fault, I could have done things better but it doesn't mean I did things wrong. I think I did the best I could given circumstances. This is kind of feeling I need. Also if I'm right there is nothing I can do so no point in dwelling on the subject and if she contacts me eventually I won't have hurt feelings.
Still some anger and such remain. But now it's much more familiar feeling. I plan to use these emotions to my advantage. When life gives you lemons...
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
