07-23-2021, 05:48 AM
Day 22
The strategy seems to work. Or at least it works better than overanalyzing everything. At least I have some results to show for it.
My number one priority should be limiting my distractions on the internet. I don't have Twitter, I use Facebook and Reddit rarely now but I do a lot of YouTube and reading random stuff on the internet that comes my way (forums, articles etc.). And, sadly, this might be a tall order because how much time in my work is spend waiting as I test stuff out or wait for the results. You gotta keep yourself busy in the meantime somehow...
What's weird and hard for me to deal with right now is switching between modes of thinking or rather behaving. It's hard for me right now to start of work, but once I do it's easy. I even tend to come back to some problems in my free time because I feel anxious doing "nothing" meaning relaxing. However, once I'm in the relaxing mindset its very anxiety-inducing to sit back to work.
Also I'm feeling tired, both physically and mentally, in general. I don't feel like going for my walks anymore for example, I feel like I don't have neither time nor energy for it. I'm pushing my limits when it comes to sub usage, I'm doing maybe 3 loops on my laptop of hybrid daily on average and it takes its toll. All only at the moments when I feel a need for it, I'm not forcing anything nor following a set schedule. I need a lot of sleep and it's hard to get up. Still I find a simple act of listening to the sub smooth and reassuring.
The strategy seems to work. Or at least it works better than overanalyzing everything. At least I have some results to show for it.
My number one priority should be limiting my distractions on the internet. I don't have Twitter, I use Facebook and Reddit rarely now but I do a lot of YouTube and reading random stuff on the internet that comes my way (forums, articles etc.). And, sadly, this might be a tall order because how much time in my work is spend waiting as I test stuff out or wait for the results. You gotta keep yourself busy in the meantime somehow...
What's weird and hard for me to deal with right now is switching between modes of thinking or rather behaving. It's hard for me right now to start of work, but once I do it's easy. I even tend to come back to some problems in my free time because I feel anxious doing "nothing" meaning relaxing. However, once I'm in the relaxing mindset its very anxiety-inducing to sit back to work.
Also I'm feeling tired, both physically and mentally, in general. I don't feel like going for my walks anymore for example, I feel like I don't have neither time nor energy for it. I'm pushing my limits when it comes to sub usage, I'm doing maybe 3 loops on my laptop of hybrid daily on average and it takes its toll. All only at the moments when I feel a need for it, I'm not forcing anything nor following a set schedule. I need a lot of sleep and it's hard to get up. Still I find a simple act of listening to the sub smooth and reassuring.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
