Day 18
2 loops this morning while sleeping
Why am I so scared? I thought this and am going to share it.
Must be going through a change since I'm getting pissed at me skipping and dancing around (performing) trying to win someone's approval. I do that. It's REALLY getting me pissed.
If I see a link in there, I see myself trying to pose for anyone interested since you'll see parts of me you like. The REAL me is left behind, and I'm pissed----not used to owning anger--I'm not kidding. I dance around it, push it away, fear it'll hurt you--and then you'd not like me. I'm f$@#ing leaving that since that bullshit rules my head.
Tears came through, like a small release.
F##k. (trying to backpedal now)
2 loops this morning while sleeping
Why am I so scared? I thought this and am going to share it.
Must be going through a change since I'm getting pissed at me skipping and dancing around (performing) trying to win someone's approval. I do that. It's REALLY getting me pissed.
If I see a link in there, I see myself trying to pose for anyone interested since you'll see parts of me you like. The REAL me is left behind, and I'm pissed----not used to owning anger--I'm not kidding. I dance around it, push it away, fear it'll hurt you--and then you'd not like me. I'm f$@#ing leaving that since that bullshit rules my head.
Tears came through, like a small release.
F##k. (trying to backpedal now)
I want to be FREE!
