Day 57
Im chilling and cruising in OFv3 vibe. Feels really good just living and chilling. Am creative aswell. No frantic thoughts, no rushing, nothing.
Relationships are deepening in general, a deeper and more fearless 'connection" just energy
Although Im hitting the gym on the regular, im still having bodyimage issues. OF seems to work on that and other things. This translates itself in putting on ashirt at the grocerystore, instead of just a tanktop while it being warm af. Im looking sexy as heck, better then the majority, its still an insecurity that popping up. At the gym im fine, on the streets away from my living town im fine in general, but im my own town? Nope. Reflecting on this, this seemed to be why DMSI worked as it did, not hitting close and deep enough on this issue and fear.
Im way more relaxed in my skin, in my being, in myself.
2 days in a row im waking up with blocked ears after playing loops at night. They seem to be fine but I find it really typical how they just pop open halfway in the morning.
Also, im not happy with my current living place. I never felt really at home here. Just came home and first thing that came out of my mouth is "im so done with everyone and everything" might be time to truly graduate, or im walking away from my responsibilities but im getting depressed just writing this. Ugh. Its just so fucked up.
Im chilling and cruising in OFv3 vibe. Feels really good just living and chilling. Am creative aswell. No frantic thoughts, no rushing, nothing.
Relationships are deepening in general, a deeper and more fearless 'connection" just energy
Although Im hitting the gym on the regular, im still having bodyimage issues. OF seems to work on that and other things. This translates itself in putting on ashirt at the grocerystore, instead of just a tanktop while it being warm af. Im looking sexy as heck, better then the majority, its still an insecurity that popping up. At the gym im fine, on the streets away from my living town im fine in general, but im my own town? Nope. Reflecting on this, this seemed to be why DMSI worked as it did, not hitting close and deep enough on this issue and fear.
Im way more relaxed in my skin, in my being, in myself.
2 days in a row im waking up with blocked ears after playing loops at night. They seem to be fine but I find it really typical how they just pop open halfway in the morning.
Also, im not happy with my current living place. I never felt really at home here. Just came home and first thing that came out of my mouth is "im so done with everyone and everything" might be time to truly graduate, or im walking away from my responsibilities but im getting depressed just writing this. Ugh. Its just so fucked up.
