07-17-2021, 12:26 AM
Day 13
2nd day on
3 loops ultrasonic
I did something different and made a playlist of silent tracks with 3 OF3 loops. I did this since I'd been waking up earlier to run masked tracks. I did ultrasonic in the playlist.
I'm trying to break through an uncomfortable habit I've been in. OF3 will uncover stuff I normally totally avoid, and I'm left with internal reactions which really are more fear-based avoidance tactics. I go around in circles, avoiding it in any way possible. I'll whine to myself, I've imagined whining here. I'm very practiced at avoiding caring for myself emotionally.
One of my internal complaints is a belief I can't do it. I'm trying to change something.
2nd day on
3 loops ultrasonic
I did something different and made a playlist of silent tracks with 3 OF3 loops. I did this since I'd been waking up earlier to run masked tracks. I did ultrasonic in the playlist.
I'm trying to break through an uncomfortable habit I've been in. OF3 will uncover stuff I normally totally avoid, and I'm left with internal reactions which really are more fear-based avoidance tactics. I go around in circles, avoiding it in any way possible. I'll whine to myself, I've imagined whining here. I'm very practiced at avoiding caring for myself emotionally.
One of my internal complaints is a belief I can't do it. I'm trying to change something.
I want to be FREE!
