07-13-2021, 01:25 AM
I had a good feeling and remembrance surface. Heading out soon.
I came here in late 2016, having been using my first subliminal hypnosis sub from an old vendor. I read posts at first, and i fearfully bought E2. I owned it for weeks, in fact, before I started it. I was afraid all my denial and protections I used would suddenly be ripped off, leaving me vulnerable and helpless. My worst fears.
Fear stayed with me for weeks.....but it kept me on it. Feeling deserving to heal myself. Beginning to validate.....my very existence (common among abuse survivors). Feeling like--this was big--like I DIDN'T need or want other's approval to heal--that is major to me. Feeling like actually growing up...might be a possibility.
Those fruits showed up early. Then came losing my victim mentality slowly....nice. Finally, in my last month was the positive thinking showing up, feeling joy at anything and everything, good and bad.
I have a fear of abandonment showing up sharing this, but I'm looking forward to E5 with this very FRM I'm using. I know I "could/should" stay on OF3--but I came to IML to heal. That's been my life's focus here, and unless I hear otherwise, I'll probably jump on E5 when it's out. I have E4, but I'm waiting on the new FRM.
Healing/coming out of denial/facing my holdups and life hindrances has been my goal since coming to IML. These tools work. Bring it on
Heading to work now.
I came here in late 2016, having been using my first subliminal hypnosis sub from an old vendor. I read posts at first, and i fearfully bought E2. I owned it for weeks, in fact, before I started it. I was afraid all my denial and protections I used would suddenly be ripped off, leaving me vulnerable and helpless. My worst fears.
Fear stayed with me for weeks.....but it kept me on it. Feeling deserving to heal myself. Beginning to validate.....my very existence (common among abuse survivors). Feeling like--this was big--like I DIDN'T need or want other's approval to heal--that is major to me. Feeling like actually growing up...might be a possibility.
Those fruits showed up early. Then came losing my victim mentality slowly....nice. Finally, in my last month was the positive thinking showing up, feeling joy at anything and everything, good and bad.
I have a fear of abandonment showing up sharing this, but I'm looking forward to E5 with this very FRM I'm using. I know I "could/should" stay on OF3--but I came to IML to heal. That's been my life's focus here, and unless I hear otherwise, I'll probably jump on E5 when it's out. I have E4, but I'm waiting on the new FRM.
Healing/coming out of denial/facing my holdups and life hindrances has been my goal since coming to IML. These tools work. Bring it on
Heading to work now.
I want to be FREE!
