"I know that you are in love with me, and anybody capable of love is capable of being safed" this destroyed me. I dont believe I can be safed on some level. The trauma hurts and im crying like a lil bitch. Lonely, being alone, everything. Some very very young part of me, early years are being hit by OF. Around 5 years old if not younger. Healing. Very young parts of me are expressing and being expressed and idk why im even writing this.
Bordering hyperventilation right now. The tears wont stop. Like the plug is being pulled out.
Im so sorry. :'(
This is the video that cause me to break down. It did the same on AM6. Healing never finished. OF is simply going deeper.
There is lots of sadness and emotions behind my day to day actions.
After the purge, a slight headache came up, my energy got noticed by way more by people in traffic for example aswell as just on the streets. Got even a car-dance with some random chick. Instant vibe till the lights got green. Dunno why there was no fear in her. Direct overwrite? Pretty much DMSI like goals in nature, the kind Shannon is after. My perception of myself is success and more mature. Its amazing how it acts like a free agent. With OF things simply flow. Journalling makes no sense really due the speed of the sub. Its already done, old news, nothing out of the ordinairy, relentless acceptance. Moving through the motions, ut is what it is, events.
Bordering hyperventilation right now. The tears wont stop. Like the plug is being pulled out.
Im so sorry. :'(
This is the video that cause me to break down. It did the same on AM6. Healing never finished. OF is simply going deeper.
There is lots of sadness and emotions behind my day to day actions.
After the purge, a slight headache came up, my energy got noticed by way more by people in traffic for example aswell as just on the streets. Got even a car-dance with some random chick. Instant vibe till the lights got green. Dunno why there was no fear in her. Direct overwrite? Pretty much DMSI like goals in nature, the kind Shannon is after. My perception of myself is success and more mature. Its amazing how it acts like a free agent. With OF things simply flow. Journalling makes no sense really due the speed of the sub. Its already done, old news, nothing out of the ordinairy, relentless acceptance. Moving through the motions, ut is what it is, events.
