Day 1 off. ( day 46/180 july 9th )
I truly want to commit to these 2 days off. Its rough this morning but processing is needed. Its similar to former off days, which led to me starting loops back up due to all kinda stuff surfacing, resulting in self attack. Its crazy how its just one subject triggering the never enough, woe is me, doom doom doom, but if I dont watch quickly escalates. Now im catchibg myself reacting to it trying to handle it instead of getting out of my own way.
I miss the one loop euphoria that 1 loop gave me. Giving up is no option.
I truly want to commit to these 2 days off. Its rough this morning but processing is needed. Its similar to former off days, which led to me starting loops back up due to all kinda stuff surfacing, resulting in self attack. Its crazy how its just one subject triggering the never enough, woe is me, doom doom doom, but if I dont watch quickly escalates. Now im catchibg myself reacting to it trying to handle it instead of getting out of my own way.
I miss the one loop euphoria that 1 loop gave me. Giving up is no option.
