07-08-2021, 09:59 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-08-2021, 10:02 AM by Kol.
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So I never lost my edge. Got Ja all dreamy today, some other women showing clear IOIs and had another chick returning after she dissapeared. This was all at a BBQ. So, Jo ( its a shortening for privacy reasons ) returned. She insisted on a hug out of the blue. Then she said "I can lift you!" So, she wrapped herself around me to lift me up. Sexual tension frame starts right before that. Its a state. So, she was not even that bad, she actually got me off the ground, even just a few centimeters, but she did. Then, I flipped it back. I lift her up, bend her over my shoulder and took her with me. I told the rest "see ya next week!" While being self amused. Lol. I deluded myself in thinking it was gone. It never was. After that she was all shy, seeking eye contact and we eye fucked eachother. I leave it at here not judging it.
Other girl, Ja ( again, shortened for anonymity ) was all dreamy. Constant in my space. I bantered with another guy with whom Im close with, although, as of late im asessing him. We chop it up most of the time but im questioning him if he has it truly in him. When I spoke with other people, she engaged directly and was silent. I was like a vip to her. Authority, famous like. Turning her body to me, legs open as she sat completely towards me.
Another girl, african, not my type at all, kept taunting me over, kept commenting on my physique and what not. Compketely fine with it.
Another older lady who was clearly signalling aswell to me ( bodylanguage, tonality, subtle facial expressions )
There was talk about fitness, divisions of competition, how he clearly noticed changes compared to 6 weeks ago. He kept praising me. Great guy.
Now, when I got home, I joined the live im always participating in. There was talk of how there will be haters, people wont level up, abusive circles and what not. Now, hurt surfaced, unhealed parts of myself and anger towards past people. Flashback-light. The show gave rise to that. It shows im still havent let go fully. Life is a marathon. I also will level up in even better ways. Im humble in being a student, eager to learn open mind.
Im outgrowing mindsets. Its what I came to realize today.
Keep moving.
Other girl, Ja ( again, shortened for anonymity ) was all dreamy. Constant in my space. I bantered with another guy with whom Im close with, although, as of late im asessing him. We chop it up most of the time but im questioning him if he has it truly in him. When I spoke with other people, she engaged directly and was silent. I was like a vip to her. Authority, famous like. Turning her body to me, legs open as she sat completely towards me.
Another girl, african, not my type at all, kept taunting me over, kept commenting on my physique and what not. Compketely fine with it.
Another older lady who was clearly signalling aswell to me ( bodylanguage, tonality, subtle facial expressions )
There was talk about fitness, divisions of competition, how he clearly noticed changes compared to 6 weeks ago. He kept praising me. Great guy.
Now, when I got home, I joined the live im always participating in. There was talk of how there will be haters, people wont level up, abusive circles and what not. Now, hurt surfaced, unhealed parts of myself and anger towards past people. Flashback-light. The show gave rise to that. It shows im still havent let go fully. Life is a marathon. I also will level up in even better ways. Im humble in being a student, eager to learn open mind.
Im outgrowing mindsets. Its what I came to realize today.
Keep moving.
