06-28-2021, 03:21 PM
Day 41, T-Minus 140 days until end, 1st day OFF,
Stress and worst-case scenarios keeping me up last night. Took me 90 minutes to fall asleep.
I made the mistake of watching the scene from Godfather 3 where Tony Garcia handles those two assassins; I was wondering (irrationally) whether that would happen to me.
I know that I'm dealing with something major internally under the surface at the moment. Not sure exactly what it is, but I believe it touches the core of the issue.
I don't have the desire to go out into the world and to truly tackle some bigger goals (i.e., moving to a bigger city), but I think that our incomplete reopening - related to COVID - might have simply hampered my desires to do so. Who knows how motivated I'll feel once I know that it's 95-99% safe to live a normal life again?
Stress and worst-case scenarios keeping me up last night. Took me 90 minutes to fall asleep.
I made the mistake of watching the scene from Godfather 3 where Tony Garcia handles those two assassins; I was wondering (irrationally) whether that would happen to me.
I know that I'm dealing with something major internally under the surface at the moment. Not sure exactly what it is, but I believe it touches the core of the issue.
I don't have the desire to go out into the world and to truly tackle some bigger goals (i.e., moving to a bigger city), but I think that our incomplete reopening - related to COVID - might have simply hampered my desires to do so. Who knows how motivated I'll feel once I know that it's 95-99% safe to live a normal life again?
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