06-19-2021, 05:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-19-2021, 06:00 AM by Kol.
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Day 2 update
Lots of anger, rage, hatred surfacing. I dont even want to escape it. I want to FEEL it right now. Complete dive in my darkside,supressed side. Not anymore. I denied that of myself way to LONG. Im done censoring myself, holding back, playing the "domesticated good guy role" re-fang, re-claw. It interested how horniness builds up. Its time to mark my spot on this damn planet, and dominate. I wont stand for low vibration clowns having no direction. My tribe has a signature to it, coming from my intristic value system. Im the king, im the crown. My life can use a good culling. Excellence, a level of royalty and success, maturity, mindset and live fulfillment, a vision and approach.. Im rolling solo yet kindred ones will attract to me. Im cold hearted. Its whats needed to lead. Coldness is part of decision making. I will not allow nor tolerate any low life lifestyles,no matter if I naively tolerated it before. Fuck em. IDGAF.
Now that fear is dissolving, things become clear. Fear was a player in enabling habits. Kinda sus when I think about it. Follower mindset cultivated because of it, cuz, yanno, dont wanna lose that person. ( pisses me off raw right now ) fear also led me to allow myself to be treated badly, to just say nothing and be cool about it, while I wasnt cool about it, only to have rage on my mind afterwards. Its fear, it always was/is.
Lots of anger, rage, hatred surfacing. I dont even want to escape it. I want to FEEL it right now. Complete dive in my darkside,supressed side. Not anymore. I denied that of myself way to LONG. Im done censoring myself, holding back, playing the "domesticated good guy role" re-fang, re-claw. It interested how horniness builds up. Its time to mark my spot on this damn planet, and dominate. I wont stand for low vibration clowns having no direction. My tribe has a signature to it, coming from my intristic value system. Im the king, im the crown. My life can use a good culling. Excellence, a level of royalty and success, maturity, mindset and live fulfillment, a vision and approach.. Im rolling solo yet kindred ones will attract to me. Im cold hearted. Its whats needed to lead. Coldness is part of decision making. I will not allow nor tolerate any low life lifestyles,no matter if I naively tolerated it before. Fuck em. IDGAF.
Now that fear is dissolving, things become clear. Fear was a player in enabling habits. Kinda sus when I think about it. Follower mindset cultivated because of it, cuz, yanno, dont wanna lose that person. ( pisses me off raw right now ) fear also led me to allow myself to be treated badly, to just say nothing and be cool about it, while I wasnt cool about it, only to have rage on my mind afterwards. Its fear, it always was/is.
