just realised why ive been putting so much pressure on myself and my trading.
it was my fear of failing my family not myself. i thought my money would help them. (of course family doesnt want money they only want love.)
this makes sense because i knew i didnt have a deep fear of failing, or losing money or anything. dont get me wrong its not like i want to lose all my money. but it didnt make sense to just call it a fear of failing, there was something deeper.
now i strongly believe, my high expectations with trading are/were to fundamentally help my family financially. because everything else i can buy by getting a job - again not what i want but not the end of the world. but its the extreme wealth i want for my family and to provide for them for generations that i really want.
EDIT: i dont have kids yet (maybe now i know why), i mean mum dad and siblings..
it was my fear of failing my family not myself. i thought my money would help them. (of course family doesnt want money they only want love.)
this makes sense because i knew i didnt have a deep fear of failing, or losing money or anything. dont get me wrong its not like i want to lose all my money. but it didnt make sense to just call it a fear of failing, there was something deeper.
now i strongly believe, my high expectations with trading are/were to fundamentally help my family financially. because everything else i can buy by getting a job - again not what i want but not the end of the world. but its the extreme wealth i want for my family and to provide for them for generations that i really want.
EDIT: i dont have kids yet (maybe now i know why), i mean mum dad and siblings..
