01-28-2021, 11:11 PM
Update:
So I have definitely reached a majour turning point in the friendship breakup issue:
I reached a point where after talking to one of my... Let's just say esoteric teachers, and gaining some philosophical perspective, I thought about the situation and my grievances and said to myself: "Look, you're already convinced of your stance on the matter. It's pretty fair and reasonable at this point. Holding onto grievances because you feel unjustly treated in the matter is basically just holding onto a) victim mentality and b) self importance, not to mention c) the illusions of lack and dependence. You don't need this person to validate you or your feelings and perspectives. You don't need to harp on how they're gonna pay the consequences for their lack of personal accountability in the matter either. They probably will, and they will also probably, so long as they refuse to lack the prerequisite self awareness to own up to their end of responsibility for everything wrong on their end of the situation, if nothing else, pay the price of the inherent disempowerment and self-sabotage that comes with irresponsibility, but even if they don't, that's THEIR problem, not yours. Whether they are held accountable, whether they take responsibility on their end, whether there's some sort of justice or whatever, or not, not only is iy not your problem, but you don't need that stuff to happen. Let it grind away at your arrogance. Free yourself from self importance, dependence and victim mentality, and you will have power in freedom that irresponsibility would deny her, and if nothing else there ia an inherent sense of justice in that, but what's more important, there's growth , power and freedom in it. Just let go of this dead and limiting situation. There's nothing more in it for you. Just let it go. Whatever bullshit self deception and irresponsible attitudes she may or may not entertain are her problem, don't keep letting it also be yours. She can enjoy that stagnant and monotonous way of things if she wants or she can cut it out amd actually live life that's he r prerogative, but you don't have to stay stuck in those patterns and energies. And you don't have to keep giving time and energy to someone who never openly appreciated it or returned it to you. You can move on from this to better things."
And I let it go. Any time I would feel pain from it, I would just say "Lwt it grind away ypur arrogance and self-important need for validation" over and over in order to help accept the situation and move on. You know, be grateful for hoq it's changed and strengthened me.
It's definitely made a difference. My energy is different
So is my emotional state. I'm way more detached , stoic and calm.
I'm also suddenly getting hit up by highly attractive women on social media. Honestly, it seems the less I invest in that the more opportunities pop out of nowhere. It's not like my looks skyrocketed or I got famous or made more money. In fact, the Revver thing fell through, so I'm back at square 1 with all of that, unfortunately. But when I don't think about it, 9s and 10s hit me up on social media wanting to talk.
There are other times where I become mote invested and certain issues/patterns play out again, bit I recognize it, learn, adapt my behaviour and move on.
It's as though the energy itself ia being felt, even by total strangers om the internet from other parts of the country and the world. If it reverts back to the old energy, the same wounds reopen. Though I heal much more quickly and move on from it much more quickly. But if I change my energy for the better, that is met with the opposite effect, which is a lot nicer and cooler.
Money wise, I'm still looking for what to do, though once I get certain obligations out of the way, I intend to focus on online content creation
I am also looking into two other options:
Freelance translation work on Latium.com, which I have heard of some people making 500 a day doing if one plays one's cards right.
The other is getting a call center job, working for Progressive, which pays 16.5 to 18.5 dollars an hour, has lots of benefits and at least until the COVID situation changes, can be done outta the home.
So my situation there is still improving in a way. I wasn't making much on Rev.com anyway.
I am hoping to focus on online content creation though. Once that takes off well enough, I should be making decent coin to say the least, doing stuff I like and enjoy doing, as well as being my own boss. It'd be nice for sure.
So I have definitely reached a majour turning point in the friendship breakup issue:
I reached a point where after talking to one of my... Let's just say esoteric teachers, and gaining some philosophical perspective, I thought about the situation and my grievances and said to myself: "Look, you're already convinced of your stance on the matter. It's pretty fair and reasonable at this point. Holding onto grievances because you feel unjustly treated in the matter is basically just holding onto a) victim mentality and b) self importance, not to mention c) the illusions of lack and dependence. You don't need this person to validate you or your feelings and perspectives. You don't need to harp on how they're gonna pay the consequences for their lack of personal accountability in the matter either. They probably will, and they will also probably, so long as they refuse to lack the prerequisite self awareness to own up to their end of responsibility for everything wrong on their end of the situation, if nothing else, pay the price of the inherent disempowerment and self-sabotage that comes with irresponsibility, but even if they don't, that's THEIR problem, not yours. Whether they are held accountable, whether they take responsibility on their end, whether there's some sort of justice or whatever, or not, not only is iy not your problem, but you don't need that stuff to happen. Let it grind away at your arrogance. Free yourself from self importance, dependence and victim mentality, and you will have power in freedom that irresponsibility would deny her, and if nothing else there ia an inherent sense of justice in that, but what's more important, there's growth , power and freedom in it. Just let go of this dead and limiting situation. There's nothing more in it for you. Just let it go. Whatever bullshit self deception and irresponsible attitudes she may or may not entertain are her problem, don't keep letting it also be yours. She can enjoy that stagnant and monotonous way of things if she wants or she can cut it out amd actually live life that's he r prerogative, but you don't have to stay stuck in those patterns and energies. And you don't have to keep giving time and energy to someone who never openly appreciated it or returned it to you. You can move on from this to better things."
And I let it go. Any time I would feel pain from it, I would just say "Lwt it grind away ypur arrogance and self-important need for validation" over and over in order to help accept the situation and move on. You know, be grateful for hoq it's changed and strengthened me.
It's definitely made a difference. My energy is different
So is my emotional state. I'm way more detached , stoic and calm.
I'm also suddenly getting hit up by highly attractive women on social media. Honestly, it seems the less I invest in that the more opportunities pop out of nowhere. It's not like my looks skyrocketed or I got famous or made more money. In fact, the Revver thing fell through, so I'm back at square 1 with all of that, unfortunately. But when I don't think about it, 9s and 10s hit me up on social media wanting to talk.
There are other times where I become mote invested and certain issues/patterns play out again, bit I recognize it, learn, adapt my behaviour and move on.
It's as though the energy itself ia being felt, even by total strangers om the internet from other parts of the country and the world. If it reverts back to the old energy, the same wounds reopen. Though I heal much more quickly and move on from it much more quickly. But if I change my energy for the better, that is met with the opposite effect, which is a lot nicer and cooler.
Money wise, I'm still looking for what to do, though once I get certain obligations out of the way, I intend to focus on online content creation
I am also looking into two other options:
Freelance translation work on Latium.com, which I have heard of some people making 500 a day doing if one plays one's cards right.
The other is getting a call center job, working for Progressive, which pays 16.5 to 18.5 dollars an hour, has lots of benefits and at least until the COVID situation changes, can be done outta the home.
So my situation there is still improving in a way. I wasn't making much on Rev.com anyway.
I am hoping to focus on online content creation though. Once that takes off well enough, I should be making decent coin to say the least, doing stuff I like and enjoy doing, as well as being my own boss. It'd be nice for sure.
