01-27-2021, 01:31 PM
Haven't posted in a while, mostly because I'd been a bit too preoccupied with getting in my own way. (As a reminder, I'd previously taken and continue to take full responsibility for having deviated from the standard listening instructions.)
Unfortunately, I'd forgotten that humans are adaptive organisms, that the "only constant" is change, and that even cruise control (before the past decade or two and the existence of self-driving cars, at least) required frequent manual intervention and readjustment.
Without realizing it, I'd expected the auto-config module and the set-it-and-forget-it directive to mix smoothly, and, not unlike my experiences of ignoring my instincts on OF v1, I'd ended up ignoring both auto-config readjustments and my own instincts after the first day:
The second lesson, the one that I keep failing to learn, is that ignoring my instincts regarding sub scheduling doesn't provide very good results.
My instincts didn't disagree with auto-config's presumed initial scheduling (since they typically require more sample data than the new impulse needed), and they'd even seemed to agree with auto-config's possible rescheduling. Whether I'm trying to set a good example or exhibiting curiosity about a new tool in the toolbox, it would probably serve me well to ensure that, in both cases, listening to myself remains a higher priority. Otherwise, it might be a little too similar to going on a road trip and deciding to use the windshield only as a means of reclassifying the stopped car in front of me as a speed bump.
Still, mistakes are an integral part of the learning process. I'd rather grow from what I'm learning than punish myself for not already knowing it.
Unfortunately, I'd forgotten that humans are adaptive organisms, that the "only constant" is change, and that even cruise control (before the past decade or two and the existence of self-driving cars, at least) required frequent manual intervention and readjustment.
Without realizing it, I'd expected the auto-config module and the set-it-and-forget-it directive to mix smoothly, and, not unlike my experiences of ignoring my instincts on OF v1, I'd ended up ignoring both auto-config readjustments and my own instincts after the first day:
- When auto-config seemed to suggest an initial listening pattern, that pattern worked very well for the first 2-3 cycles.
- When auto-config seemed to suggest downshifting so soon after those first few cycles, I mistook it for resistance and stubbornly refused to decelerate.
- When my own instincts started throwing up "over-listening" indicators (I'm one for whom "carpet-bombing" on 5.5G+ either backfires noticeably or has little effect), I mistook it for normalization of the initial positive effects and continued to trust the original auto-config scheduling.
- When various unrelated aspects of my life kept throwing the phrase "Too Much Too Soon" at me, as if it were "Bad Wolf" in a 2005 sci-fi TV series, I still failed to connect the dots, clinging to "It's just a forced march, like E1" while enduring the increasingly miserable/uncomfortable spiral downward.
- When circumstances finally disrupted the original listening pattern, execution quickly improved, and I regained enough clarity to put the ignored puzzle pieces together. To clarify: I'm not underdoing my listening now; I was just overdoing it previously.
The second lesson, the one that I keep failing to learn, is that ignoring my instincts regarding sub scheduling doesn't provide very good results.
My instincts didn't disagree with auto-config's presumed initial scheduling (since they typically require more sample data than the new impulse needed), and they'd even seemed to agree with auto-config's possible rescheduling. Whether I'm trying to set a good example or exhibiting curiosity about a new tool in the toolbox, it would probably serve me well to ensure that, in both cases, listening to myself remains a higher priority. Otherwise, it might be a little too similar to going on a road trip and deciding to use the windshield only as a means of reclassifying the stopped car in front of me as a speed bump.
Still, mistakes are an integral part of the learning process. I'd rather grow from what I'm learning than punish myself for not already knowing it.
