Transcendental Sith Lord's E4 Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Ah, where to begin.

I will say I was wrong about one thing I thought things couldn't get any better but they do. Don't know why but every time I listen to the sub then go to sleep as soon as I wake up I tend to get a bloom effect right away which makes me feel even better. I recently last night did my first break in a while and still feeling very good today and no downward spiral at all.

I have noticed recently as well on this journey on E4 that the whole experiencing different realities thing has gone up noticeably. To the point that I feel quite immersed in them at times. This mainly happens when thinking of what I will be doing once I'm on DMSI or UMS, though mainly UMS. DMSI seems to be just a "fun" thing I would run while waiting for UMS and interestingly enough I know for a fact I am feeling TID from DMSI which is quite amazing when combined with the whole experiencing different realities thing. Its quite interesting as I've been thinking of 2 women in my past in particular that I have this idea that I might be running into them while I'm running it. Also this kind of confidence that I am deserving and should have relations with any women I want. This TID seems to have mainly played out yesterday and today. Just noticed a boost in sexual feelings out of no where.

Anyway, other than that things are just going really smooth. Already doing research online and working out plans of what I will do with the money I get after running UMS. Mainly looking at countries that offer citizenship by investment, etc. I do plan on mainly spending most of my time in Asia and the EU after all is said and done. Might try to get a residence in an Oceana country as well. Will have to see but I have a lot of things I need to work out and plan for once that money starts coming in. Interesting too how its not an "if" the money comes in but when. Major difference from before where I had all this internal conflict. Glad that was dealt with.

Have practically no interest in Movies or games. I might still play the occasional game with friends here and there but other than that not much. Just have no interest in being in some make believe world like most people seem to enjoy. Rather move my actual real world circumstances forward instead of trying to escape from them. In my case I have a new perspective on reality so I rather deal with the "real world" as it were because I find it way more enjoyable now. It really makes me think that most of the societies we live in are obsessed with entertainment now to the point of addiction.

I also get this feeling that I need to find new people on my level to talk to eventually. The people I used to talk to just aren't cutting it mind you not that I "need" other people but it would be nice to talk on occasion with people with higher ambitions and actually making it. I don't know there just seems to be something wrong with people who have potential but they just settle on some meager existence because they are too "afraid" to realize it. Its quite boring honestly. So many people who are trapped in prisons of their own making and have the keep to their escape yet don't even realize it or like their prison. I admit I was one of those people but it feels so good to be out of that self imposed jail cell as it were.

Anyway, I will leave it there for now and wish you guys good luck on your journeys.