Wednesday 14 October - Day 1 of Cycle 3
Today there may have been a bad dream but when I woke I wondered if it was so or simply my imagination. So cant give any data on that. The day had been pretty much the same so far.
I did wake with more motivation to get started on my to-do list but I didnt make any movement for hours and hours later as is the case at the moment.
My girl was 1 reason, she called me on the phone during her motorway/highway drive home which isnt safe and well it ended with her having a small accident. Shes ok but it was enough to shake me and confuse me etc. I didnt feel scared or anxious though as much I may have in the past or would have and not sure if thats a good thing but as im so far far away from here there is also little I can do.
I did fear what if she blamed me and left me that fear seems to be predominant in my mind for sure and ive noticed its in my head for a while now and something that I sense in my day to day dealings with her or when I imagine about her. She loves how I melt her with my words but alas she is not the same, well not via text but when we speak I am drawn to her its unreal.
My friend told me that I do seem to get attached quickly to girls and that is true so unsure if OF will work on this.
So anyway she is fine and shes been more or less txting me now as if alls well so ill see.
Beyond that I got some minor things out of the way before I ate and as usual putting off the bigger task at hand however I have so far completed 4 tasks from my to-do list so that is still good enough for me
Also something I havent shared as I didnt think it was relevant but it may be is that I have had loose stool for the past few days maybe 4days. It could be OF or simply the diet changing to water so will see and start mentioning these ailments should they continue. Today however the stool was opposite.
Today there may have been a bad dream but when I woke I wondered if it was so or simply my imagination. So cant give any data on that. The day had been pretty much the same so far.
I did wake with more motivation to get started on my to-do list but I didnt make any movement for hours and hours later as is the case at the moment.
My girl was 1 reason, she called me on the phone during her motorway/highway drive home which isnt safe and well it ended with her having a small accident. Shes ok but it was enough to shake me and confuse me etc. I didnt feel scared or anxious though as much I may have in the past or would have and not sure if thats a good thing but as im so far far away from here there is also little I can do.
I did fear what if she blamed me and left me that fear seems to be predominant in my mind for sure and ive noticed its in my head for a while now and something that I sense in my day to day dealings with her or when I imagine about her. She loves how I melt her with my words but alas she is not the same, well not via text but when we speak I am drawn to her its unreal.
My friend told me that I do seem to get attached quickly to girls and that is true so unsure if OF will work on this.
So anyway she is fine and shes been more or less txting me now as if alls well so ill see.
Beyond that I got some minor things out of the way before I ate and as usual putting off the bigger task at hand however I have so far completed 4 tasks from my to-do list so that is still good enough for me
Also something I havent shared as I didnt think it was relevant but it may be is that I have had loose stool for the past few days maybe 4days. It could be OF or simply the diet changing to water so will see and start mentioning these ailments should they continue. Today however the stool was opposite.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
