First day off. Had at least two vivid dreams last night. Today I was exhausted and listless, it felt almost like I had a flu.
I finally saw a short movie a friend wrote and directed (thanks Covid, I couldn’t have seen it if the Silent River Film Festival hadn’t been moved to virtual space.) I had no idea what the movie was about, she never told, and it turns out it resonated with my deepest traumas. Ever since I started E3 three ago, I am getting more and more clarity about and understanding of my traumas. Sometimes I shed half a tear but it’s never been too painful. I expect it to heal better and more smoothly now with LTU (especially if I don’t screw up the logistics of listening.) Shannon said I should try and find the time and place to cry when that happens but that hasn’t worked out so far.
Last night I had a strong histamine reaction- a very red, itchy and warm red spot on my hand and some itching in different places of my body. I ended up taking a pill because it was bad enough that I didn’t want to risk having an emergency in the middle of the night. It’s all gone now (but technically that pill is still working.) Pimples are now completely gone except for the minor scabs they left behind.
Some diarrhea today. It all sounds like detox to me, but Shannon does not think so.
A minor stroke of luck - I was going to waste time and gas money to go buy something at Home Depot’s. I really did not want to go but had to. At the very last moment we found out that what we were going to buy at Home Depot’s would not work for us and what we needed is available around the corner instead. Useless trip avoided, getting what we need piece of cake.
I am starting to like this newfound luck. I admit that I was always whining and pitying myself for my bad luck. I am dine with that, I am a lucky person now.
Tonight will be
August 16th, Stage 1, Day 6 (ASRB2)
I finally saw a short movie a friend wrote and directed (thanks Covid, I couldn’t have seen it if the Silent River Film Festival hadn’t been moved to virtual space.) I had no idea what the movie was about, she never told, and it turns out it resonated with my deepest traumas. Ever since I started E3 three ago, I am getting more and more clarity about and understanding of my traumas. Sometimes I shed half a tear but it’s never been too painful. I expect it to heal better and more smoothly now with LTU (especially if I don’t screw up the logistics of listening.) Shannon said I should try and find the time and place to cry when that happens but that hasn’t worked out so far.
Last night I had a strong histamine reaction- a very red, itchy and warm red spot on my hand and some itching in different places of my body. I ended up taking a pill because it was bad enough that I didn’t want to risk having an emergency in the middle of the night. It’s all gone now (but technically that pill is still working.) Pimples are now completely gone except for the minor scabs they left behind.
Some diarrhea today. It all sounds like detox to me, but Shannon does not think so.
A minor stroke of luck - I was going to waste time and gas money to go buy something at Home Depot’s. I really did not want to go but had to. At the very last moment we found out that what we were going to buy at Home Depot’s would not work for us and what we needed is available around the corner instead. Useless trip avoided, getting what we need piece of cake. I am starting to like this newfound luck. I admit that I was always whining and pitying myself for my bad luck. I am dine with that, I am a lucky person now.
Tonight will be
August 16th, Stage 1, Day 6 (ASRB2)
