07-16-2020, 05:39 PM
I was on the fence about starting up again with OF, but I had a realization. I can’t go into the details here, but there was a moment about two weeks ago when I got massively unstuck at work with a conflict with a colleague that was very emotionally-charged on my side (it pushed the “you’re broken” button deep in my chest). I realized that that moment was about two days into the abandoned run that I’d been doing.
So I’m back.
Today is day 1, and I did the ultrasonic overnight. I also went in for a ketamine treatment today, and it was unlike other treatments that I’ve had. Usually the dizziness passes after about 30–45 minutes, but it’s two hours later now and I’m still feeling dizzy and almost motion sick. In addition, usually during the treatment the ketamine has my body feeling buzzy, but this time there was no sharpness to the buzz, but it was dull and overpowering. I don’t know if that’s intentional, unintentional, or totally unrelated and just a weird variation on how the treatment proceeded, but I wanted to note it.
So I’m back.
Today is day 1, and I did the ultrasonic overnight. I also went in for a ketamine treatment today, and it was unlike other treatments that I’ve had. Usually the dizziness passes after about 30–45 minutes, but it’s two hours later now and I’m still feeling dizzy and almost motion sick. In addition, usually during the treatment the ketamine has my body feeling buzzy, but this time there was no sharpness to the buzz, but it was dull and overpowering. I don’t know if that’s intentional, unintentional, or totally unrelated and just a weird variation on how the treatment proceeded, but I wanted to note it.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
