07-07-2010, 10:07 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-07-2010, 10:24 PM by Tigerlilly.)
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Day Listening – 1 hours
Night #17 – 9 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams of hills and valleys, and trying to travel long distances from the peaks and valleys without the aid of paths. Distances felt great and difficult to reach. Alternating between trying to determine, with input from other individuals, if the trek would be worth it. There was water to be navigated around without the use of boats.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Day Listening – 4 hours
Night #18 – 7 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Went to a yoga class toad then shopping for all the flowers, soil and mulch I will need to do fix up the patio. The building has a front patio which is not very appealing at the moment. I am trying to create a space that will look and feel good so that I spend time outside working inside of being trapped indoors all the time.
Tuesday, June 29 , 2010
Day Listening – 0 hours
Night #19 – 7 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
The day was not productive with respect to school projects. I did re-seed the small patches of lawn in front of my building and plant the perennials around the tree in addition to beginning the flower boxes. The lawn, which was two feet high with weeds, is now bare soil and seeds. If the birds don’t eat all the seeds, I should have grass very soon!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Day Listening – 7 hours
Night # 20 – 0 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Finished planting the flower boxes and cleaning up the patio. It looks good and is finally a space that I find pleasant and will likely use more.
I did not sleep tonight. Research on various things an work that is not at all a priority kept me up all night. Reverting back to my bad habits of staying up all night, and this time for no good reason.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Day Listening – 3 hours
Night #21 – 13 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: None that I can recall. Perhaps a result of no sleep last night?
A bit more work on the patio. Great tool for procrastinating on my current school project. How come I am still procrastinating? Had plan to go to another yoga class today, but man am I sore from all the digging, planting, and tilling of the formally weed only lawn.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Day Listening – __ hours
Night # 22 – 6 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: Someone giving a commencement speech asked me for advice regarding writing and and speaking; Gave the person advice but told them they should really listen to CC when he speaks; very moving, and articulate. CC was not in dream, only referred to.
Broken heels while running jumping out a window to get to my car (don’t know why I was jumping out the window); review of work to former classmate; mention that I was moving back to Boston but another landscape architect said that work was difficult to obtain and the economy was really bad.
Wandering around the hull of a huge ship with several classmates; eventually wandering into the second floor of an abandoned building. Got the feeling that we were not supposed to be there and if we were found there we would have been in significant trouble.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Day Listening – 5 hours
Night #21 – 5 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: None (or maybe just none I can recall?)
I've been a bit lame regarding my daily journal of effects and feelings. I haven't felt motivated to do much of anything the last 10 days. I've changed my listening schedule, removing Life Tune-Up and replacing it with Absolute Self Confidence (ASC). Still listening to three subs at night, but now ASC, Procrastination, and Let Go. I'm hoping to see bigger results with ASC than with LTU based on what other users have stated. I need something to help with the problem I seem to be having with motivation and resistance to change. I wonder if I should begin doing my own affirmations in the morning, like I once used to do. When I used to meditate, I did so right when I got up, then would exercise (if I had time) which seemed to have the best results for me with respect to creating positive energy for myself each day. I feel like I am lacking in the positive energy dept. but not feeling motivated to do anything about it, which is totally ridiculous, and not typical for me. My friends call me the "energizer bunny", but if they saw me now, I'm sure they would think I resemble a tortoise more. I can't figure out if I am just burned out from all the stress of the last 10 months, or if something greater, which I am failing to recognize, is standing in the way of my desire to pull it all together (aside from the relationship woes of course.)
Tomorrow (or later this morning to be exact) I will start my day early, get some exercise, and try to get something accomplished.
Day Listening – 1 hours
Night #17 – 9 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams of hills and valleys, and trying to travel long distances from the peaks and valleys without the aid of paths. Distances felt great and difficult to reach. Alternating between trying to determine, with input from other individuals, if the trek would be worth it. There was water to be navigated around without the use of boats.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Day Listening – 4 hours
Night #18 – 7 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Went to a yoga class toad then shopping for all the flowers, soil and mulch I will need to do fix up the patio. The building has a front patio which is not very appealing at the moment. I am trying to create a space that will look and feel good so that I spend time outside working inside of being trapped indoors all the time.
Tuesday, June 29 , 2010
Day Listening – 0 hours
Night #19 – 7 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
The day was not productive with respect to school projects. I did re-seed the small patches of lawn in front of my building and plant the perennials around the tree in addition to beginning the flower boxes. The lawn, which was two feet high with weeds, is now bare soil and seeds. If the birds don’t eat all the seeds, I should have grass very soon!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Day Listening – 7 hours
Night # 20 – 0 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Finished planting the flower boxes and cleaning up the patio. It looks good and is finally a space that I find pleasant and will likely use more.
I did not sleep tonight. Research on various things an work that is not at all a priority kept me up all night. Reverting back to my bad habits of staying up all night, and this time for no good reason.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Day Listening – 3 hours
Night #21 – 13 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: None that I can recall. Perhaps a result of no sleep last night?
A bit more work on the patio. Great tool for procrastinating on my current school project. How come I am still procrastinating? Had plan to go to another yoga class today, but man am I sore from all the digging, planting, and tilling of the formally weed only lawn.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Day Listening – __ hours
Night # 22 – 6 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: Someone giving a commencement speech asked me for advice regarding writing and and speaking; Gave the person advice but told them they should really listen to CC when he speaks; very moving, and articulate. CC was not in dream, only referred to.
Broken heels while running jumping out a window to get to my car (don’t know why I was jumping out the window); review of work to former classmate; mention that I was moving back to Boston but another landscape architect said that work was difficult to obtain and the economy was really bad.
Wandering around the hull of a huge ship with several classmates; eventually wandering into the second floor of an abandoned building. Got the feeling that we were not supposed to be there and if we were found there we would have been in significant trouble.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Day Listening – 5 hours
Night #21 – 5 hours; “USS”; Speakers
30 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 30 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.
Dreams: None (or maybe just none I can recall?)
I've been a bit lame regarding my daily journal of effects and feelings. I haven't felt motivated to do much of anything the last 10 days. I've changed my listening schedule, removing Life Tune-Up and replacing it with Absolute Self Confidence (ASC). Still listening to three subs at night, but now ASC, Procrastination, and Let Go. I'm hoping to see bigger results with ASC than with LTU based on what other users have stated. I need something to help with the problem I seem to be having with motivation and resistance to change. I wonder if I should begin doing my own affirmations in the morning, like I once used to do. When I used to meditate, I did so right when I got up, then would exercise (if I had time) which seemed to have the best results for me with respect to creating positive energy for myself each day. I feel like I am lacking in the positive energy dept. but not feeling motivated to do anything about it, which is totally ridiculous, and not typical for me. My friends call me the "energizer bunny", but if they saw me now, I'm sure they would think I resemble a tortoise more. I can't figure out if I am just burned out from all the stress of the last 10 months, or if something greater, which I am failing to recognize, is standing in the way of my desire to pull it all together (aside from the relationship woes of course.)
Tomorrow (or later this morning to be exact) I will start my day early, get some exercise, and try to get something accomplished.
TigerLilly
Masquerading as a normal person day after day is exhausting!
Masquerading as a normal person day after day is exhausting!
