That sounds like what USLM does, Paul. Maybe UMS is showing you these weak areas presently since UMS has USLM. Maybe it's taking a snapshot for your awareness so you'll dive into resolving these things, one by one. I'd say you admitting it here could be evidence of that.
I've been seeing clearly in my own life that fear keeps me unorganized (since failure always seemed safer), inefficient (so I'd think I was failing someone), and distracted (so it'd look like I was confused, when I was actually very fearful and trying to avoid it).
Something I used to hear from Mat422 was that fear wears many masks, many charades. It'll pose as one thing, I'll face another challenge, and fear would morph to fill its new role in the challenge as the covert saboteur. It was always hidden well.
And when I first heard this, I thought it intellectual fluff. As I paid attention, I began to see that fear was very adaptable. It shifts shape and function constantly. And I don't notice it constantly since such thoughts and feelings have been "normal" for me.
And me writing this out made me think, as hiding and lying (all evidence of fear) have still been trying to adapt into my life. Thank you for making the suggestion, as I'm considering what's happening in my life presently.
I've been seeing clearly in my own life that fear keeps me unorganized (since failure always seemed safer), inefficient (so I'd think I was failing someone), and distracted (so it'd look like I was confused, when I was actually very fearful and trying to avoid it).
Something I used to hear from Mat422 was that fear wears many masks, many charades. It'll pose as one thing, I'll face another challenge, and fear would morph to fill its new role in the challenge as the covert saboteur. It was always hidden well.
And when I first heard this, I thought it intellectual fluff. As I paid attention, I began to see that fear was very adaptable. It shifts shape and function constantly. And I don't notice it constantly since such thoughts and feelings have been "normal" for me.
And me writing this out made me think, as hiding and lying (all evidence of fear) have still been trying to adapt into my life. Thank you for making the suggestion, as I'm considering what's happening in my life presently.
I want to be FREE!
